Originally Posted by
control freak
Never give up. You could be a minute away from a miracle.
oh my gosh i love that.
i wish i had words to say. you need to know that no matter what it feels like that there ARE people who geninuly care about you and would be devastated. It wouldnt only affect you no matter what you think..theres somebody who will be affected by it. Thats what I have to constantly remind myself of and usually its the only thing that gets me through when im so low. Nobody can talk you out of it if you dont want to be, but im sure anyone on here would strongly encourage you not to. Like somebody said previously that things WILL change no matter what it looks like. I have been suicidal since I was a teenager and while things are definatly not how i want them...there are so many things i would have missed out on if one of my previous attempts have been successful. Like just hearing my little boy laugh or the kitty cuddled in my lap as i type this. Just little things that may seem like no big deal but they inspire even the tiniest glimpse of hope and desire to get better when i just feel like giving up. At 16 17 even 20 i felt so much like i had nothing to live for and now at 25 im so thankful i didnt give up even though im feeling low right now i know if i can get the right help and keep going i will look back and be glad i didnt take my life at 25. i say this only to hope it inspires you. there are others that care and understand and you are not without value and worth no matter how you feel.