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Buckle under pressure
Alright, so... I haven't cut in over a year now. Problem is, the urges are returning strongly.
Of my 3 best friends, 2 of them SI. The third one may as well, though i'd never know it. I fight day in and day out to keep myself from going back down this path, yet I have these 2 close friends who are there. No matter what I say or do, they continue. I know that I alone can't force someone to quit. There would probably be no such thing in this world if it were that easy.
In a way, it's like it's own peer pressure. Knowing they do it. Reading about it almost daily. Knowing that I once was the same, and can return to it so easily. They can't quit. They don't want to quit. Half the time, they seem to enjoy it fairly well.
What is to stop me from giving in and "joining the crowd" so to speak?
I don't want to go back down that road, but I can feel it coming.
~MK
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