[Sophia]

i feel so bad because i never come on here unless im feeling low and need help and i feel like i never contribute as a group but i have just royally screwed myself. please someone help me.
i just cut, first time in over a year and my boyfriend is asleep next to me and im too scared to tell him.
i have no bloody idea why i did it!! why would i want to screw everything up. why? why do i do this when i start to feel happy/.

what do i do?

please, i feel so lost.