thanks for all of your replies. and yes, i have emailed her and sent several pm's. there has been no reply. We would talk every night and then suddenly poof, she disappears. Maybe she is just taking a break from the site? i really dont want to think about any other option. i hope she is ok. if you know anything else please let me know
and for Mikelovesella:
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/member.php?u=11457