The thing is Kath huni, the mind is such a powerful thing. You can be the cleverest person on the planet, you can understand every little in and out detail of your problem, but that doesnt make accepting help or helping yourslef any easier. Knowing something is wrong is one thing, being able to do something about it is another. You have an illness. That illness inteferes with your feelings about your capacity to help yourself. It is not your fault and yes, I know it must be frustrating and everything else. I regularly feel very frustrated that a task as seemingly simple as eating a plate of food or chosing not to cut myself is nearly impossible where I am right now. But thats why you need others around you, to help you where you are currently unable to help yourself, so that you can reach that point where you are able to use your understanding in a more fruitful way in working towards your recovery.
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