Some advice about telling others?
 

I told a friend I trust about some of the things that have happened.
I told him that "something happened" but I couldn't go into any more detail than that. he knew what I meant anyway.
he asked me lots of questions that I couldn't answer. I couldn't explain to him that it is/was sexual abuse and that it wasn't a drunken midnight rape (which is what he thinks). I don't know how to put him straight but I really want to. he is the only person I would trust to tell. I'm scared.
I can't tell him it's abuse because it's too complicated. I can't explain that I didn't do anything to stop it, I just lay back and let it happen. I was passive. I want to tell him but I'm scared he won't understand, or that he will think I didn't do enough (or anything) to stop it. I'm scared because he will know that I am still in touch with my abuser, and will try and do something stupid. I don't know really.
It felt nice, and strange to tell him. I didn't get too hysterical. I'm scared to tell him the truth because I think the truth is so horrible and disgusting. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should tell him or not. I know this is my own choice, I am just feeling very confused right now.

the 2 methods people often find easier than actually verbaly explaining is to either write it down (in the third person if that's easier) or to do the yes/no thing where they ask no/yes questions and you answer and they slowly build up an idea of what happened

I't shard to to tell someone... but having someone who knows can be so useful and... well.. just knowing someone else knows is almost "comforting" in itself...