aah?
 

so my father's downstairs talking to my mother... for the first time in over three years. he came into my room for the first time since then too and i actually had a little mini meltdown like i was 16 or 17 again and in the middle of all the sh*t. i actually felt like time had f*cked up and he had never left and neither had i and everything was just... ? i even went to get changed out of my pyjamas in case we had to run out of the house. like im 20, i have a car for f*ck sake, how can he still make me feel like this...

Awhh hun. *hugs*
I don't know what to say but I'm here for you. xo.

Hugs. I'm sorry your Dad is still able to make you feel this way, I think it's similar for a lot of people - I certainly know it's true for me. I'm not sure why it's that way or how we can change it though. If you want to talk feel free to PM me. xx

thanks :) x

My counsellor would say it is the hurt child in you wanting to run. You have to soothe the inner child with the adult you are now xxx