Hi guys (prob trig)
 

I haven't cut in like 5 years.....but I tried again tonight. I hate myself so much. My daugther deserves so much better. I'm so goddamn fat I can't stand myself. I should just cut every time I mess up so I'll finally learn not to be a goddamn fatass. Anyway sorry to be a downer I just really feel like it's nevr going to get better right now. :'( I havne't felt thsi way in a long time. No more food for me!!!!!

i love rollerblading.

You don't have to punish yourself for being overweight! Instead, love yourself by eating a healthier diet, but don't deprive yourself either.

Rollerblading sounds awesome!

It will get better!

*hugs* I know it's difficult but extreme dieting isn't the answer either your daughter will hate it just as much, growing up in a household controlled by food. BlondieBear is right,, just try and eat healthily, everything in moderation and go out rollerblading, walk places instead of drive/bus if you can, little things will make the difference, not extreme differences.

Things will get better, 5 years is an amazing achievement, you said you hadn't felt this way in a long time, that shows that it's not always going to feel this bad. Don't be so hard on yourself, Take care, Hannah