Why did you decide to recover?
 

I haven't cut for about 2 weeks or something like that (not counting) but whenever I try to think why I'm recovering I don't seem to have a reason. I still get urges, but I think I just sort of realised that I didn't need to cut to try nad fix my life. In the end I think I just drifted in recovery.

What are other people's reasons?

Its great that you think that way.
I've pretty much stopped, but only decided too once my boyfriend did it to himself to show me how it feels.
Kind of shocked me into stopping...
I vary rarely feel triggered now....
So yeah, boyfriend reasons =]

Because I want to wear bikinis and shorts and t-shirts when I go on holiday in August. Basically. I'm just kinda worried about what happens when the holiday's over. *scratches head*.

It's great that you want to recover, keep going!

Well done for trying to recover - people don't always need a clear cut reason.


Strangely enough, I don't consider myself in recovery - I've treated the past 8 months as a phase where I'm trying to alleviate suspicion and get more oppurtunities. I have no plans to stay clean after I get out of this place and go to uni.

I can't see a reason for being in recovery. And I certainly can't find anything that works in the way that SH does for me.

Well, I recovered for a few different reasons:


Tired of hiding cuts, burns, and blood stains
Roommates and family were all really pissed at me
Rapidly declining health
Really sick of always wanting to die
Felt trapped by needing to cut even though i no longer wanted to
Realized I was going to die sooner rather than later if I didn't change
Got fired from job for SI
Got evicted from apartment for SI
Really really tired of getting locked up in hospitals


So yeah recovering has been a really positive thing for me.

~mark

I decided to recover because i kinda lost the sight of Why i harmed....

Also i started to scare myself....nt fun

basically i've heard so many bad stories about self harm and plus i want to work with children when i'm older so its just like. Self harm or work with kids? Work with kids won and not done anything in 3 months

Good job on your two weeks!

For me, one day I just got tired of dealing with it, tired fo cutting, tired of purging, tired of being sad all the time, and just fed up, I just decided I couldn't take it anymore, and since that day, I have had many urges and a few slip-ups but I have never let myself fall back down that path. I realized for awhile cutting and purging was what was keeping me alive, but that after awhile, it was what was keeping me from LIVING. That was my experience...
xx
Nicole

yay =]
emma you're doing really well
*hug* =]

i stopped basically because my mum found out..and i just couldnt deal with what i was doing to her anymore...
yeah..sorry i know that reason won'e help you but..yeah..

I stopped because I didn't care anymore. I couldn't get the energy to do anything, much less cut. I'd still get urges, but I couldn't get up to do anything about them.

Seven months later and I still get urges, but I haven't cut. Most of my scars have faded. It's like I'm getting a second chance... But I don't care about it.

I have decided to recover because if I was still depressed I would have killed myself sooner or later and what's the point in that. I know it's hard but you have GOT to put your rational cap on and think realistically. I did it for myself.

i did it for my daughter and my partner

You've got to make the decision at some point. And I've got a job and a home and planning my future going on now, I just had to grow up and get on with it.

Something like that pretty much. It was becoming too much effort to hurt myself,attempt to tidy up after myself, clean MYSELF up, stop the bleeding,then the next day I'd normally either have to go to hospital, or a walk in centre, and really, I have much better things to do with my time now. I never sat there and went "I'm not going to hurt myself ever,EVER again" I just, kinda stopped...

I suppose, going to uni showed me that it's not something I need to do to validate myself as "real", people knocking on my door or phoning me, or shouting at my window does that now.

it didnt feel worth it anymore.I wanted to hurtmyself straight afterwards again.it wasnt helping.i hated hiding the cuts and now i dont need to.when something goes wrong i know i can get through it without going straight for the blade

i didn' decide to recover, my work did that 4 me,
if i was still lef harming then i would have no job to go bk to.
that sounds really bd

I was a new manager and I was working hard. I had been struggling with cutting for many years but I never saw it was the problem that it was. I believed that I was in control and that I was using it as a way to control the pain. One day I got really upset and I ran to the back freezer to scream. I let out a loud scream and at the same time cut at my arm. i don't remember if I went in there to cut. It was like it was so automatic tha tI didn't even think about it any more. The cut was bad, worse then I had ever done before. I had to get one of my employees to help me wrap my arm. I was humiliated I had to explain what I had done because there was no explination to be had. I had always found a way to excuse my cuts up until that point but in that moment I realized that I was living a lie. I wasn't in control at all cutting was. That is when I decided I needed to try to get better. I can't grow as an adult if I am controlled my cutting. So that is my reason.

I just got sick of what it did to me, I wasn't hiding the cuts and burns as well, and I just got tired of lying. It became more hassle than it was worth. I want to prove to myself that I'm strong enough to beat my SI, and I'm going to do it. Because I don't know if I can get let down again.

i couldnt be bothered cutting any more and it didnt do anything for me so i just stopped. now i'm almost 10months free..

soph.