I just want to die*ED TRIGGER
 

like the title says.
I just ate a lot but was unable to get it all out. The whole situations much more complicated than I have time to explain, but in general I would much rather be dead than put on the weight contained in what I ate. Worse still i've run out of laxatives. I feel so disgusting, and am unable to self harm at this point in time, which only leaves 1 option really (death).
UGhh
I hate myself so effing much:angry:

I used to feel like this after i had binged, but now i have moved on from that and i am so glad i didnt do anything rash now! Could you possibly try distracting yourself, i know everyone says that but i can help!

*hugs*
xxx

Awh hun, I'm sorry to hear that. *HUGS*
Are you getting any professional help/support?
Take care sweetie, we're always here for you.xo.

*hugs*
i know you may not be able to see it atm but death is not the only option. as katie said are you getting any help? things wont always be this way sweetie
keep fighting
xxxx

one bing won't make you put on weight I promise. I agree with all that's been said above, deth is not the escape here. what sort of support do you have?

Thanks everyone so much for your replies (and sorry about mentioning amounts). Yes I am seeing someone though they were off sick this week. I do hope your right about not putting on weight, but I feel a little better now and I didnt (and wont) do anything stupid.
Thanks again