i was TRYING to get help.. it's anything but.
 

so 2 nights i had a freak out and i was completely suicidal and i wrote a note and everything. i called my friend though and she told her mom who then claled my mom. but anyways today i saw my therapist and she told me that i was IMMATURE and that was "creating drama and a great way to get attention." She also told me i am self-centered and stubborn. i was like i thought you told me to tell someone if i get those thoughts? and she said no. you don't let them come in the first place. what the fuck? so what did i get out of that session.. hmm that i am self-centered, immature, stubborn, and trying to get attention. i give up on trying to get help.

That's just fucked up. She should NEVER say that kind of thing to you! I can't believe it.. That's totally ridiculous. You need to find another therapist, because your current one seems to SUCK. How can she tell you NOT to ask for help??? That is completely insane and wrong, I would tell your parents or maybe her boss if she has one, what she said.

You're not selfish or immature for asking for help when you need it. Not at all! Saying you're feeling suicidal is not just attention-seeking, don't listen to people who tell you otherwise. If you need help please don't let this situation make you decide not to, you need to be able to communicate with people when you're upset! Just don't tell that lady, if I were you I wouldn't go back to her at all.

xxx I'm sorry she was such a bitch!

Good lord, that's about the meanest and most unprofessional things she could have said to you! You should get a new therapist who at least makes an effort to be understanding and helpful... clearly this woman is not going to help you at all.

Hun, I know how you feel!
I've been there, more than once. Forget about them, they don't know #### if they say things like that. Don't let this experience get in the way of trying to get help again. Get a different therapist. It was wrong of her to say what she said. Not professional at all! xo.

but the thing is my parents won't let me stop going. i refuse every time and then they ground me and tell me i can't go to things that mean a lot to me.. so i always end up going. finding a new therapist really isn't an option.

Well in that case your parents are guilty by association? What age are you and it may be worthwhile to find out the laws of wherever ur to see what rights you have!

As for the therpist i agree with what everyone else says, and id strongly urge you to put a complaint into their oss or to their professional governing body,a nd if you do that then they'll not be wantingto see you either and they'll probably freak that uv had the guts to do it, furthrmore it gets u round the problem with ur parents.

The important thing here is to realise that uv done othing wrong and u are doing the right thing looking for help, and am sure that u will fnd it!

Let us know how ur doing!
Best Wishes,

Craig

it's just not worth the work. i don't have the time.. or energy.. to idk. there is nothing left for me.

Don't think like that. Youve already eing doing the hard work and others have let you down, just keep pushing that wee bit more! Your almost there

i've been let down too many times.
my trust is completely damaged.