No point
 

Just been kicked out of our prom limo, so other people our group arent even that good friends with can go. i dont want to go anymore. I dont see the point in life. They werent even going to tell me.

since im not wanted in my own clique, whats the point in forcing my way in when clearly no one wants me there, or cares about even telling me

i want to be a music therapist, but dad says thats ruined now, coz of my si. i want someone to be able to look into my eyes and tell me everything will be okay, but now i cant trust anyone to do that


Im so triggered now. Ive already fucked up once tonight. My friends dont want me

Hun, I'm so sorry you're feelin' like that. Please find distractions. xo.

what your friends did was bang out of order.
You can still be a music therapist, having si'd doesnt automatically disqualify you from it.
you'll prob have to have been free from si and coping well for a set amount of time before you go into that line of work, but you will still be able to if thats what you want to do.
I know it seems like a lost cause but keep fighting those urges because it really isnt.

Sweetie people like that aren't real friends and you deserve to be treated much better.
Just because you si doesn't mean you can't be a music therapist. Do you think you could use that as something you could work towards and a reason to stop hurting yourself and start to feel better.
Do you have any proffesional support? You can get through this and move on and live the life you deserve.
Take care of yourself
x