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Struggling...majorly.

Cant deal with betrayel of extremly close friend.
Cant deal with something else. extreme pressure.
:crying:
Cant deal with my thoughts, feelings.
Reactions?
I feel messed up.
Not myself.
Dissociated?
Lost?
HELP.

Sammi you need to tell someone who can keep your safe, be honest with them about how you are feeling because you need some more support.
Keep calm and breathe.
Take care
x

I agree with the above. Hun, just tell someone you know you can trust to keep you safe that you're struggling. xx

I am writing a letter to my ASW Im seeing her on Monday.....she has already said she wants me to have some time in a psych hospital so maybe that would help?

Sammi honey, H**** isn't worth this, You need to focus on you, not her, you are very ill and you are struggling right now, I hope you can get help soon, you need it. I love you sweetie. I'm here for you. *cuddles* Love you sis.

If I wronte this letter to my ASW in third person, as in saying "she" instead of "I" would she think im weird because I cant say what I want unless its in that format I cant say how i feel etc. and im going to ask about hospitilisation.

I just really cant save myself from me anymore.

Hun, I'm sorry you feel like this. *HUGS*
Could you talk to someone? xo.

I just somehow need to get through till 2moro night.... extremly struggling though :crying:

A lot of people use the third person when it's something difficult or painful, or even when they find speaking about theirselves difficult... I know I do it...
no one will think you weird for it


you need to focus on yourself right now, maybe some time in hospital would be helpful for you, allow you to focus on you and on getting better, its good that you are considering it.

you can make it till toorrow night, you are strong and can do this. we are all here to help in any way that we can

Thank you I believve I can to, I just feel so overwhelmed by feelings, and thoughts and i have that horrible feeling in my throat and so much pressure to deal with. Just argh you know. I am going to ask to go into hospital on monday before I get sectioned because I am pushing it :(

Sorry nothing to add but I wanted to say I hope you are coping *hugs*
I hope hospital helps if you do go in.
Is there anywhere safe you can go?

TRIGGERED majorly.....
Got tablets
really wanna OD

Sammi you need to get rid of the tablets they aren't going to solve anything they are just going to make things even worse. You are strong sammi but you need to use your will power to help yourself not hurt.

But if I take them, they will put me in hospital to get treatment so I dont die. Then I can stay in general hospital for a bit and be looked after and cared for

You don't have to od to be cared for. Look at all the people who have replyed you are cared for already.
And you can go to hospital without od'ing tell them what you want to do and let them help but at the end of the day it is up to you. You need to want to be helped and work with people to stop yourself getting back into this state again and again because life doesn't have to be like this.

CRAP am back at uni. on my own. no credit. no money to get anywhere. suicidal. wtf do I do?? :crying: panics

Don't panic, Sammi; we're all here for you. Is there anyone you can go and see who's nearby?

Stay safe, sweetheart *cuddles*

no one and my best friend, who I talk to about everything is in hospital....no one here....i dunnoo wat to do.

it would take me an hour and half to walk to A&e ive done it before.....then i would have to walk back and get mugged not really an option :( *needs to calm down*