GAH why do i keep doing this..
 

Basically, every time a guy likes me or asks me out, i think of a million reasons i shouldn't or can't go out with them. I've only ever had one real boyfriend and well basically i dumped him because i didn't have that feeling.
I never have any feeling for any of them. Like, they move too fast? They don't take the time to just let me get to know them. I'm terrible with people. I am so shy it's unreal. I'm not comfortable around people and that is my problem.

But anyway, this guy asked me out and everyone is like oh go out with him he likes you. WHAT IF I DONT LIKE HIM huh?
I like him as a friend, and sure when were drunk we have a kiss or two. Maybe im a whore. Idk.

Why do i keep on doing this? Its just so much easier WITHOUT a bf. Im happy without one. So why does everyone keep pressuring me into getting one?

They also keep telling me i must be gay if i won't get a bf. But i'm not. I have no sexual attraction to girls. Gah. Why is the most important thing in the world ****ing bf/gfs?

Everybody thinks that because you're a teenager you must have a b/f or g/f or like somebody or, omg, you're so weird! But it's not like that, I admire the fact that you just don't want somebody at the minute. I think you should just do what you want, & if you wanna be single, then screw it, be single. You've got plenty of time to get a b/f, don't let your friends pressure you into it. Have fun, you're only young once! =) xx