im not ok
 

argghh, cant do this. everyone thinks im fine, noone cares enoguh to help me. im not fine, i feel lkime im breakingm, falling apart. you know? its hard to write this i fel guilty, like a waste of space noone cares anyway. all i can think of is suicide but then i feel guilty for that cos theirs like 2-3 people whod be upset if i died. i jusr wanna sleep forever. but icant i have to function as noraml i have to get up and o to college and smile and tell everyone im ok, but i cant anymore just leaving my house is hard i hardly ever go to college and i never see my friends anymore. my parents are threatning to kick me out cos im causing argument that are hurting everyone. im a screw up. and im not ok. i just want someone to acknoledge im hurting and you know> care. but noone cares, noone will ever care. i hate me. i reeally do. thanks to anyone whos bothered to read this. sorry for posting im so pathetic

You are not a waste of space and everyone has a right to ask for support.
If you are not honest with people then it is hard for them to help you because they are not mind readers and its hard but sometimes you have to fight for the help you need. You are not pathetic and you don't have to go through this on your own.
Could you go to your doctor and try get some professional support?
You don't have to tell everyone you are ok because it is alright to admit when you aren't and when you need help.
Take care of yourself
x

Hun,
You're not pathetic at all. People do care even if it doesn't seem like it. *HUGS* If you're feeling suicidal and you're not alright, then you need to tell someone. People won't know how to help you or what's going on if you don't tell them. Are you getting any professional support/help? I understand how you are feeling, sweet. You can get through this. Take care, we're always here for you. xo.

I have a counsiller, but she dont like me, wont see her for another month anyway. i have to pretend im ok, iv lost to many friends from telling them the truth about sh, depression ect

If you don't think your counsellor is helping you, you can try see someone else sometimes it can take a while to find the right person and the right type of therapy for you because everyone is different.

Hunny! ):
Sisterling...
I love you...I care...I do ):
We has to go camping? Please stay strong lil sisterling! ):

counsiller has talked about making me see someone else, but the phyce decided against it. and big sisterling im trying my best, its so hard to live right now, i keep having mini breakdowns? thats the bestest way i can describe it. last about 2 hours its horrid. noone understands how bad things are. why cant i dide saves everyone alot of pain. except a few people arrgghh

Sisterling, don't EVER say that, okay? I don't ever want to hear you say that...please...? ): I love you, I care. Everyone on here cares. Your parents care, your friends care. People care. People might not fully understand how bad things are, but they can try to...*huggles tight*

I love you to. but its so hard. im just not doing good right now. and several months ago i thought i was getting better. how wrong i was

oh and noone cares, family hates me, friends abandoned me and noone on here cares

I CARE!
listen to me, please, I care so goddamn much, if anything happened to you then I'd break. Please, stay safe hunny x

really? i feel so alone and hated i just dunno whats true and whats not anymore

I know, I know hunny
Believe me though.
I care.

*hugs*
we all care!!!

xx

urgh whhy do people keep telling me suicde is wrong? when they dont believe that. seems kinda hypocritical to me.

I can't do this, things are just to hard. i want the hurting to stop. and i feel like im letting people down. i just want hep and support and to know people are their for me but noone cares enough for that

you don't listen, do you.
I'm not telling you again.

dont be so horrable to me i cant fucking take it, im fucking falling apart, its not tlike you listen either. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I care.

I think i need to od, i been counting the pills for15 mins now. but i dont want to but i do. my heads so confuzzled ..