I attempted..twice
 

I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm just crazy.
I'm too much of a wimp to go through with it, but I don't want to be alone.
My mom's out of town, I told my dad I want to be put on suicide watch..he flat out told me no.
I went back to my room wrote a note, and started suffocating myself... Then quickly stopped.
Then, I deleted the note (yeah, I'm lame enough to write my "suicide" note on notepad) went back outside and told my dad everything in a mocking voice with a smile on my face..I don't take myself seriously, so I guess he shouldn't either :/
I'm like the girl who cryed wolf, I've said I'd do it many times before and I've attempted before..but not nearly as many time's as I've threatened to. I don't know why I do it, I guess my need for attention? :cry:
So my dad laughs it off and tell's me to just do it already or try to be happy.
So I go back to my room, and start to suffocate myself. Then wimp out again and stop doing it.
Eh, what can you do?

Hey im worried about you and you should be taken seriously.

Please try not to do this again.

im sure that you dont need me to tell you this but what you did could have seriously harmed you/killed you if you did not stop in the middle.

And thats why everyone should be taken seriously.

Because whether anyone actually intends to die when they make an attempt [and im not referring here to whether you specifically did/didnt intend to die] whatever they do/may be thinking about doing could end their life and thats why people should be taken seriously no matter what.

And im sorry about your Dads attitude.

i guess that must have really hurt.

Also though [and this doesnt make it right] he might just be scared and not know how to deal with the issue/how you are feeling.

It sounds like you actually might want some help.

Is there anyone else you can talk to or can you get yourself to a doctor or hospital or anything like that?

I'm worried about you too! I'm sorry your dad didn't take you seriously. Please when you're feeling like that call an ambulance or go to the a&e. they will take you seriously. please try and get some help and stay safe.

please let us know how you are doing.