Feeling alone
 

I not coping well, No one really knows anything about me. I act happy and full of life, Yet when I get home I break down.

I can't do this much longer. Everyday I spend thinking about different ways I could end my life. My favourite being to just walk into the ocean and keep swimming. I think about it so much and it feels so real. It relaxes me and yet excites me.

I hurt myself alot. Its the same old feeling that pours over me and it comforts me. Then I have to spend ages trying to hide it all. I want so much to tell someone how close I am to giving up, but I cant bring myself to do it.

I'm scared I'm just gonna die and no one will know why Im did it. I dont know what else to do.

I don't know what to suggest... *HUGS* Do you have many friends who you can just hang around with? *HUGS* I hope you feel better soon.

-hugs- I'm sorry you feel this way. Well you know that people on here will understand what you're going through. Not completely cause everyone is different, but they'll try. Pm me anytime.

i am really sorry you feel like this, it can be a very lonely and distressing situation. Do you not have anyone you can trust, friend, family member, doctor, therapist? you need to tell someone how you feel so you can get the help you need and deserve.

You shudnt feel that you have to suffer in silence. feel free to PM me if you need someone who will just listen and not judge.

you need to tell someone how you feel so you're not struggling alone. it is hard when you get these feelings but you don't have to give into them. you deserve to resist and to feel better. is there someon you can tell who coul help, or just have soemone know what you're going through?

Heyya,
I can understand what you're saying. *HUGS*
It's good that you feel you should talk to someone, even if you feel you can't bring yourself to do it. Could you possibly write down how you're feeling in a letter anf give it to someone? Maybe a family member, teacher, school counsellor, doctor ect. That way you can get the help and support you need. Please get help. Take care, sweetie. xx

*Hugs* Im sorry that your having a hard time. I know its hard to open up to people but you really do need to reach out to people so that they can give you the support you need. Whats happening for you? Are you able to talk to us about things? What is it thats making you feel this way? You mentioned that you hurt yourself alot, can you tell us why you hurt yourself and what it is thats causes you to hurt yourself? Please dont hurt yourself, it wont make things better it will just make them worse.

By keeping everything locked up inside you your problems stay with you but if you were to open up then they wouldnt stay with you, they would be shared with someone who can give you the support you need. Could you write out a letter explaining how your feeling etc etc and give it to your parents or your teacher? Or perhaps if you made an appoinment at the doctors you could hand it to the doctor? Please keep safe, please dont end your life, Suicde isnt the answer and if you did end your life think of all the people you would leave behind and how they would feel.

Take care best wishes Ian

hi
 

I can write anything down, No one knows cause I have spent so many years building up someone I'm not it's impossible for me to let people see how much pain I'm in.

I do write letter after letter, I even show people sometimes, But when asked where it comes from I say it's not about me. I have always wrote so they just believe what I say. I wish more then anything I could just say it's about me, it's what I'm feeling.

I keep having nightmares about being abused, When I wake up my head messes with me. I remember a few things that obviously looking back shouldnt have happend. I dont know. I still see the guys that did things and they don't act different around me. So is it my head? or are they messing with me. I dont know.

Suicide as always been an option for me. Started back when I was 16. A guy who lived round the corner from me ran in front of a train. It got me thinking. What an option. So from then on suicide is like my comfort blnaket. You know?.."If things go wrong or I can't handle something it's ok I can always kill myself". I know that sounds really extreme.

Hurting myself, I dont really know how I started doing that all I know is that when I do it shuts my head up for a bit. Calms me down and in a strange way feels good. Although the more I did it the more severe I needed to hurt myself. IT wasnt enough to do one of too it has to be more.

I dont wanna hurt anyone, which i guess is why i dont tell anyone. I just scared I guess

Sorry this is a bit long
x

maybe it's time someoen knew? maybe you need to force those words out? suicide shouldn't be an option, there's too much to life for it to be. you could write something and at the bottom put 'this is about me, i need help' something like that, so they don't even have to ask you.