I just need to say.. something.. anything..
 

I think i need a reminder.. A reminder only i can give myself. Its been a long time since ive done anything effective, and ive forgotten what it feels like to S.I, but i remember what i felt. I remeber how i used to be. Ive changed since then.. im practically a new person. But deep down inside, more than anything i wish i could be the old me. I didnt care.. it didnt matter who i was back then, as long as no one knew i cut i could care less. I miss that.. and times are so rough right now i just think i might remind myself.. only a little. I know i have control now. I used to be off the chains with it.. but now i have will power and i am determined to change. I have for the most part.. but like i said deep down inside, theres that old me waiting to come out..:-)

I can relate hun. deep down inside i want my old self, to be the old me. you are not alone in this.

I think, even though I know I've changed in the years I've been here, I'm pretty much still the old me. I'm glad you've found control now, though, which seems important to someone who hasn't.

I hope you work things out, find the old you, and realise who you're better off being. :)