im sorry for posting* poss triggers for everything*
 

I am so low... trying to support others to ignore my own problems.Mine dont matter because i dont have the guts to do anything stupid...why support me?

i feel so ignored... especially in chat.I have asked for support a few times the last few days but i get none.

why help people if i dont get a thank you or supported back.i know that is not how RYL is meant to be but it sucks being ignored.


sorry

i am completly losing myself... too many thoughts going in and out.i cant even write what is going wrong because it wouldjust borepeople to death.


sorry
sorry for making this thread

i feel useless... maybe it was time i left ryl

dont be sorry. its crap when you feel that way especially on a place to help you like RYL. i tend to find chat makes me feel that way anyway so i try stay out of there.

is there anywhere you feel able to post and get supported? like does vets make you feel ok? maybe you could stick here for a while to see if it helps any?

i dont think you should leave, especially since your not feeling great. if you want to PM me or anything feel free, im going out in a bit but should be back online tonight to reply.

ive seen you post supportive replies about so dont think it goes unnoticed.

take care sweety

sam

xxx

Chat is akward.
Next time your in chat and you see me in there grab me.
I'm not very good at advice but I always have a ear to listen.
I'm sorry your feeling so bad.
Take care xxx

Jane dont go, please dont go.
You are such a big part of this place and frankly I will chain myself to your ankle if you leave for reasons other than 'im better and its time to go'. Please dont appologise, you have nothing to appologise for.
Im sorry you're feeling ignored and cant find anywhere to post, I dont use chat but I gather that support is not always the easiest thing to get there. Do you not even feel that you can post in Vets Support?

Anyway, I think you're super special, and if you ever want to talk im always around ok?

Take care hun
Aimee xx

I honestly feel scared posting anywhere incase i am ignored.. making this thread was scary enough...maybeit was the fact that i didnt explain what is going on made it less scary i dont know.

the easiest way to get noticed in chat is to attention seek tbh.I dont want to do that to be noticed sometimes.

I am mentally really low,suicidal thoughts have returned and to make it even better my period is about to start which means i get even more down/ suicidal.

meh sorry

Where all here to listen. Might not be great on advice, but we will definetly listen. However, we cant listen if you dont tell us.
Its scary putting yourself out there, but please try to.
Got to be better than keeping everything locked inside.

Take care
Kim

*Cuddles* I am so sorry you feel ignored, I have here and it sucks arse. There is also only so much ignoring your own problems and helping others that can be done.

Please remember that your period will be over soon, it is temporary and remind yourself of this all the time. Sometimes it helps to say (and have the attitude) I am going to be grumpy, I am female and I have PMT; hardly surprising... then make a cup of tea.

Take care this is muddled but you are not alone, never were and never will be Jane xxx *smooches*

i try so hard to let people know... but i feel it would be difficult for anyone to understand.

i feel bad for makingthis thread now and taking up space on the support board

Dont feel bad, if something is bothering you, its better to get it off your chest.

i guess i will just list what is going on, sorry i am in a lot of pain and writing something long is very difficult.

family issues- my parents business isnt going aswel as planned, my dad hates it here.my mum isworking a lot and i am worried her ME will get really bad again.my sister is suicidal.there are a lot of other things happening in my family but itsnot effecting me that much.

me- my depression is getting worse.I am hardly eating and drinking.i amstarting to show signs of severe dehydration but i cant seem to drink.i am suicidal.i cant see any of my frienda because they live 150 miles away in an area that has no public transport and i am 600 miles from my bf and my uni friends which is making this so much more difficult to get through.


sorry =/

hey Jane,

I'm afraid I don't have a huge amount of wisdom to share

just wanted to say I read your post, and I'm not ignoring it

I know you feel really isolated just now, but remember it's just for a couple months and then you will be back at college and around your friends, and if posting on RYL helps - then go for it!

Dehydration is really not good (apologies for stating obvious) please try and drink something, ending up in hospital on a drip will not make you feel better (again, obvious, sorry)

look after yourself, and keep posting
xxxx

thank you for your reply irene... i do drop hints but you know i get frustrated that if i do say " i want to kill myself" that iwill feel bad for it the next day if i donot do anything if that makes sense.

i have also changed my font now which is scary =/

hmm well thats a difficult one. Why is it that problems never come one at a time, theyalways come on top of each other.

It looks to me like everything is conected. Your dads business is bound to put strain on all of the family. Is there something maybe you could do to have a break. Even if its only something like a family trip out somewhere, just to try an ease things?

Do you have friends you could stay with maybe so that you get a break from the situation?
I know its hard to eat and stuff when things get hectic, but you need to look after yourself in order to be able to handle the situation. Maybe carry a bottle of water around with you, so that it becomes like a habbit to drink. Failing that, put 4 500ml (normal coke bottle size) bottles in the fridge. Make yourself drink one with each meal an add the other one in if you can.

If you get dehdrated you will just feel weak and ill, which will only make things worse.

Is there any form of outside support you can get in for both yourself and your sister if you are feeling suicidal.

Most of all keep talking, on here in chat, in RL. Dont keep everything inside.

Take care
Kim

Can you call any of your uni friends or your bf? I'm sure that they would like to hear from you just chat for a bit. You shouldn't be sorry about posting...it is ok to say whatever you really feel. I don't think anyone particularly ignores threads in vets. I know I don't. But anyway you have a lot of stress and you might need to find a way to release it. Go run maybe or do something physical so you can get some stress out. It'll be ok. You don't have to feel bad about your feelings. Stay safe.

Just wanted to know how you are??
Pls PM anytime if you like ok hun? Be more than happy to listen
romp

I felt okay when i woke up today.. i feel exhausted but i assume thats the depression.Woke up to find a letter from uni wanting £40 to replace the carpet in my room, yeah there was a few stains that i had accidently made but there was a large stain on the floor from where my room was flooded... i would have contacted them but they sent it to my old address 10 days ago which means it is too late to argue my case.£40= half a week's rent... now i dont want to spend money on monday when i meet up with an online friend..which may not happen anyways.

I managed to drink slightly more the past 2 days.... on sunday i managed a litre and yesterday i had a litre plus a bowl of soup.... i know its not enough but i hadnt drank more than half a litre for a few weeks.

I guess being lonely is the worst thing, i am meant to be seeing friends at the end of the month but none have been in contact... i dont know if i am wanted up there anymore and to be honest its just too much effort to go back to a place where i am hated by a few.

sorry

I know you cant go see them because you're back home, but anything I could do about the carpet for you? If you want to write a letter or anything I could hand deliver it, there are still people going in and out the whole time.
Im glad you managed to drink some more and had a bowl of soup, thats really good. You're so lovely. xx

Nah i will just pay the £40... its just more stress i dont need.I willjust have to try to forget about it.

I am just discovered la senza have a sale.underwear shopping = happy jane

i offer you hugs
 

Massive hugs for you Jane


i appreciate how youve supported me considering
how difficult things are for you right now

please take care of yourself
your in my thoughts
Dave