I know its wrong
 

Okay,I know killing someone in real life is wrong very wrong


but i just wanna fcking Off someone ..i dont care who ..just some random person and take all my anger out on them,which is probly not a good sign i dont even want to be around people

and i am always getting to the verge of punching a wall till my hand breaks ,and scream and that also isnt a good sign


but i dont know what else to do or even how to think without wanting to kill some random person


God i swear my anger scares the living Sh*t out of me


I am scared to tell someone how i am feeling ....

If you tell a therapist they may be able to help you.

i have to set up an appointment

but if i even tell my staff at my group home,they may just pull some stupid frelling reseason to say i am a risk to others or something

and i really dont want that

Hi,

I have also wanted to kill people. Not at random though, just people that have done me wrong. I think you should tell your therapist right now. Set up an appointment ASAP if you still have these feelings. I doubt you are the type of person to intentionally harm someone like that, it just sounds like you have a lot of anger inside you. You need to get these feelings out and a therapist will help you develop strategies for these unhelpful thoughts. I find that yelling and screaming in the venting thread helps too. Pretend that you're talking to whoever it is that upset you or made you angry and get it all off your chest.

Hope this helps

I've always had these thoughts,but i am known to become a danger to people and myself when i am in a rage and i aint in a rage ...which is very worrying right now

and also i've always hated people in general...

and i know if i kill someone i could go to jail for a long time or get the death penality

I lunged at someone a few months ago. What stopped me was one of my girlfriends barking out my name in her "teacher" voice. Then she send me home. The woman I was lunging at had just told me that i belonged on a psych ward.

I saw her again last week. I still want to do something awful. I'm afraid that if I don't work this out, I will explode, or implode. If she touches me which some people think is ok to do, I don't know what will happen.

I guess what i'm trying to say, is that I understand. I know how bad the rage is, how you can feel helpless. PM me if you want to talk.

i am just afraid that at some point i may give into the anger that hates humanity ,with a passion