Can I have a hug please?
 

Just needing some hugs.

Ex was over this evening and it was horrible, he is so cold towards me and I didn't do anything wrong (he says that).

Feeling poop :(

Hey
Sorry you're feeling crappy
Can offer hugs and here if you want to talk x

Sorry your feeling so crap xxx It sounds like your Ex has the problem not you honey xxx Maybe he was having a bad day, I hope he says sorry soon

Jade xxx

*hugs MaryAnne* he's not worth it, sorry to hear you're feeling poop, *offers more hugs*

thanks for the hugs.x.

sorry to hear that your feeling crap

im always here if you need to talk to me

Laura x

*Huggles* Hope you feel better soon.

thinking of you xx

*hugs and offers an orange to add some brightness to your day*

*hugs* How are things going today Mary Anne?

Rubbish but thanks for asking.

He now won't even talk to me in person, he left stuff at my door then text to say it was there (and it was obvious I was in)

I was just over a month free until that :(

I want to curl up in a ball, I wish I could erase what he as done from my memory.

:(

How are you Ravyn?
Hows that lovely horse of yours? Mine in very very muddy!

*hugs* sorry to hear that... he's being such a jerk, it's definitely not nice. Congrats on being over a month free... perhaps this can be a slip-up?

I've been doing fairly well recently, my meds have been helping so much. And I started going to a new psych, who has been really helpful and understanding. We're going to work on getting me to stop SI'ing. So my current goal is 2 weeks and 3 days... almost at a week, so hopefully it will go well. Sorry I haven't been around much, our computer is in a more public area of the house and I don't feel comfortable going on here unless I have privacy..

my horse is doing great... really snowy, looked like a snow-horse yesterday when I brought him in... I rode him a week or so ago and he behaved faboulously... Muddy-ness.. oh the joys of spring and horses.. they love finding creative ways to get muddy!! :) Have you been able to ride much?

Hi Ravyn,

Glad to hear that you are on the right track, the whole psych thing is so hard.

I get to ride about once a week at the moment and my mum works him during the week, I think I spend about 30 minutes brushing the mud off and 20 mins riding (he is only 5 so gets tired pretty quickly)!

I know HE is a total waste of time, it just hurts when someone who was supposed to have loved you treats you like you don't exist.

I live with my cat so nobody no nosey over my shoulder when I am on the computer (just a furry bum to sit on it!).

x

lol, ya, sometimes it seems more work cleaning them up than actually riding. He sounds sweet. Have you posted any pics of him? What are you training him for?

That would hurt. And it's totally normal to feel hurt.. I wish it would go away for you, but unfortunately that's the thing only time can do.

Sending you lots of hugs!

Will try to find a picture of his muddiness!
I hope to do dressage with him, in my old age jumping is way to scary (I became old about 16 by that theory tho!). Right now it is really the basics like trotting in a straight line :) What do you do with your horse?

I have that feeling like it is going to take forever to feel better and I know it hurts less now than it did nearly 4 months ago (when it all kicked off) but it is hard to shake that thought that I will feel rubbish forever.

How often do you see your psych?
When I went it was weekly, I used to dread it cause I always ended up crying.
*hugs*