Update On Me, Kinda
 

I went to the ER again this morning.

I had to get my right thigh and left wrist stitched.

The shots for the anesthetic in my wrist hurt like a b!tch.

My mom asked if the doctor knew any psychiatrists, since we both could NOT stand my old one.

I'm supposed to be seeing a new one soon, which is good, mainly.

However, I'm nervous about that.

I want meds that are actually going to help.

I know they aren't supposed to be a magic cure, but they are supposed to help somewhat.

Hopefully, I won't just be labeled as depressed this time.

But, I don't think that the psychiatrist will prescribe meds on the first visit.

With the other psychiatrist I saw, he spoke to my therapist first, so I got meds relatively quickly, though they didn't help.

I think next week I only have one therapy session, though I don't know why that would be that way.


I tried to hit a vein and they sent me home.


WTF?

Awh. Sorry to hear you are going through a hard time right now and that you are not getting the help you needed. But that's good that you will be seeing a new therapist, hopefully they will be better than your last. I hope you are doing alright. *hugs*

Thanks.

I have to figure out a way to move out, even though I'm sixteen.

Hey, It's not easy moving out at the age of 16. Money.. Bills.. Jobs.. Food.. Rent... and so on.
Just take care of yourself, If i had a place of my own i wouldnt ever eat.

Maybe you should wait a little longer?, Look after yourself. x

I can't survive here much longer.

My mom let my jack@$$ of a father back in and I HATE him.

But part of me keeps saying that I'm over exaggerating and need to just shut the f*ck up.

I wish I had died.