alone
 

When it is dark I feel so alone. So lost and alone.
It happens every day.
I can't wait until bedtime.

But the tiler is starting in the bathroom tomorrow morning. I will be losing a lot of my freedom while the work is done. I feel scared.

I hate that gap in the evening as well... sorry you're feeling bad and alone, I'm glad you're posting here.

How long is the work going to last?

Thanks..

Up to 2 weeks. Part of that though is while the wall dries underneath. At least he won't be around for that part.
And at least he is a friend of my flatmates, and he did help us move just over a year ago. So I've met him, if briefly.
But it still feels ugh.

I feel like I'm stranded in the middle of nowhere...
I know the tiler being around is a respite sort of from that. Although I'll mostly be out while he's here. But if I was stranded on a desert island, it wouldn't be with someone tiling the bathroom. If you get my drift. And it's too damn cold to be a desert here anyway, lol.. It's warmed up quite a lot, but still feels icy cold in my heart and my body feels that..

And I won't be able to shower or bath for the whole while it's all being done. Because of the bare wall bla bla.
I've bought a huge bucket thing to make it easier to wash. But still. :(
My GP said it could be like camping! I've never been camping though and ugh.

The big bucket thing is a good idea. I know how these inconveniences can seem so much more though when you are stressed or irritable or down or whatever.

I understand the dark thing - I feel as though I am waiting for bedtime but then feel **** because I know that when I wake up it will be another morning to face. I also feel that I am wasting an evening when I should be "having a life" but can't and then I get mad with myself. Sorry, ranting but just wanted you to know you aren't alone hun.

Can't believe you have never been camping. You should try it sometime. Go somewhere beautiful and lose yourself in it.

Thanks for understanding and caring.

I like doors that lock, helps me feel safer, so camping probably isn't good. But maybe in a super amazing caravan thing!

what's fun camping (buckets to wash in) isn't such fun at home! and yep, wouldn't choose to be stranded on a desert island with a tiler, no matter how nice he is...

are there any friends you can go to for a proper shower now and again? or a long hot bath with bubblebath...!

My only friend has MS and.. well, it's complicated. My flatmates wanted me to phone this friend and use her shower. It's not that simple.
[Plus I had a phone message from this friend today, in response to a distressed phone call from me, it sounds like. Well, I never phoned her. I don't when I get upset, because, well, as I said, it's complex. This friend also has psychic abilities. So it's... scary. I've phoned her, left a message, and asked her to call me to help clear up the confusion! I'm sure I can't have dissociated it all out and called her. I don't lose time quite like that. Yeeks.]

Ok. Bathroom update.
The tiler arrived after I'd left this morning, and had gone before I got home. As it should be, although I'd have liked to at least say hello, how's it going, sort of thing. It will be the same tomorrow.
My schedule's a bit different on Wednesday afternoons, as I'm in from work around 12.30, out to therapy 1.45. back around 3.45.... So, we'll see how things go.
The bathroom looks... weird. But I have water access, the loo works. So I mustn't complain. It's also warmer than last week. If I'd had to strip wash in our kitchen last week, I think the water might have near frozen, never mind my poor bod!

Hope that you clear the confusion up with your friend; but it sounds like a nice/good thing that she called.

So do you think that you may see the tiler on Wednesday then?

Glad to hear though that you still have some water and it's not too cold.

Take care!

Hope it's Ok with your friend - and I'm glad the loo works!

I guess there's always public swimming pools for hot showers! Not so good for the bubblebath though...

Thanks. :)

My friend's not phoned me back. I also tried calling her again when I got in from work, but she wasn't in.

Looks like the plastering's to come next. Uh oh.

*hugs*

Thank you..

How did the work at the house go today?
*leaves hugs*

He wasn't in yesterday... Not sure about today. I'll be out all day though.