i've lost everything.
 

i really have lost everything now. lost my daughter almost 3 years ago (very late misscarriage and i can no longer have children, for other medical reasons). my ex-fiance is with his girlfriend. my job is temporary and ends in less than a fortnight. and me and my ex-fiance had a major row and he is now forcing me to sell our house. my parents don't want anything to do with me, i've pushed my few friends away because i made the mistake of turning to alcohol when my ex left. i have no-where to go and no-one to turn to. i can't afford a solicitor. when my(/our) house sells i will be on the streets for the second time in my life.

the only person i have is my nurse Isobel but she's off until after the new year and my psych evaluation is not till the 24th jan. i don't think i can make it through to the new year now, i really don't. i want to die. i have nothing left to live for. i don't see the point in getting up tomorrow.

i'm sorry. this was a really pointless post.

Jacqui,
First of all, that was not a pointless post at all.
Secondly, I am so sorry to hear that things are so hard for you right now.
The point in getting up tomorrow is that we love you and we all would really miss you if you didn't.

Sometimes it is all we can do to take life one day... one BREATH at a time... but the important part is to keep living.

My PM box is always open if you ever need to talk.

it's not pointless, whatever is happening there is room for you here...

I'm sorry it's so hard... I say that because I've been there... but please please believe that it is possible to recover again, I know that from experience. However hard it is to see it like that at the moment, things will get better.

cuddles you tightly.... if there is anything i've learned through similar situations...with all your friends here, you're never alone, and things are never completely hopeless; even if its hard to trudge through all of the mess and mud to see just that tiny piece of glitter there in the distance...but , its still there....
please stay safe jaqui. if you need someone to talk to you can always talk to me.
take care sweetheart