Once I'm gone
 

There be no worry for people. No people checking on me. No parents thinking I'm possessed (they really do) No more depression. No more paranoia. No more voices.
No one will have to worry. Me being dead is a final answer to them. No daily thoughts of 'is she OK etc etc' It is a fianl answer.

No more memories. No more being used.
Just no more me.

Peace, calm and no coming back.

Hey

has something triggered you to feel this way?

Suicide shouldnt be the answer, suicide not only hurts you but everyone around you.

please find a way to distract yourself with things such as the arcade, writting down your thoughts.

if you are concerned you will do soething to risk your life then please go to a hospital and explain how you are feeling

Hey,

I'm sorry you're feeling so low to even think about commiting suicide. I promise you however that it is never the right thing to do. You can never decide that your life isn't worth living anymore - in ten years time you may look back on this as just a bad experience. Nothing stays the same; you kill yourself now, and you'll never know what you're missing out on. Killing yourself is permanent, you can't change that. However, what you're going through now can change.

You said people wouldn't worry anymore if you killed yourself. I don't think this is true. You may be gone, but it'll only be the start of their problems. They'll worry about the people they care about most doing what you did, and ending their lives. They'll worry about you; they won't be able to stop thinking about you - wondering where you are. They might even think about suicide themselves. Being dead may be peaceful - or it may not, nobody knows. But what is certain is that for the people you have left alone - your friends and your family - they won't be at peace anymore. Even though death is 'the final answer', I don't think that they would accept that. I think that they'd still wonder if you were okay, where ever you were. If you haven't already, I'd suggest reading this thread, because it really does make you think. There's another thread here you may want to take a look at.

Suicide may be the end, but it definately isn't easy or painless to do. You could end up in a wheelchair for the rest of your life, or with severe brain or liver damage. Why bother taking the risk? What happens if it doesn't work? Your parents, who already are worried about you and frequently ask if you're okay, will be distraught. They won't be able to leave you alone with out being scared that you'll try it again. I know you must be going through a really, really tough time at the moment, but please, try and hold on.

If you're really scared about your safety tonight, then get yourself down to the hospital and explain how you're feeling. Alternatively, you could use Live Help. Do you have a close friend you could stay with, until you're feeling a bit better? Sometimes it's safer with someone else.

Take care of yourself. I'm here if you need to talk, you're not alone.

xo

I know they will grieve for me but at least they will know I'm at peace and also they will have a certain answer. A final thing.

I know there is no coming back that s what I want.I do not want this life.

suicide will leave alot of unanswered questions. i attempted suicide a few years back and needed hospital treatment, seeing my mum break down infront of me made me realise what a awful mistake i made. so i have experience from that angle, also recently my uncle took his own life after his daughters suicide, his funeral was the worst experience of my life because i knew it didnt have to be that way. i would not wish the trauma of a loved ones suicide on anyone, the same i wouldn't wish the need to end your own life on anyone.

alot of problems you are facing now can be resolved with time, no matter how much they hurt right now. like the saying goes, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

i know that no matter how many times someone tells you 'things will get better' it is hard to believe, but try stick it out for your families sake. next time you get suicidal feelings make a list of the things that make you happy/happy memories/what you are grateful for. i think it is important you talk to someone about how you feel before you make any destructive decisions. feel free to pm me any time you need to.

take care

I have spoken to my CPN she knows how I feel etc. She isn't trying to stop me as she knows how I feel

legally she has a right to stop you from committing suicide, or if not then she should inform someone else.

maybe you should speak to your parent or carer who will give you better support.

(edit: also please read this thread, http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1405)