How to deal with this....?
 

I seem to be suffering more and more form what i guess is distorted body image. I detest the way I look , both physically and facially and feel so ugly I can hardly look in a mirror. I am getting older and feel I get worse with age, though I am told these feelings are all in my own mind, and that I am attractive. It just causes me to SI more and it has gone from the ususal cutting to scalding myself as well. My family come up at Christmas and I just dont know what to say about the scars on my hands.
I just feel Ive had about enough of this struggle and am increasingly suicidal as Chrismtmas approaches. How do you start to stop hating yourself?

I'm sorry that you are feeling upset by how you look. I think it's good that you recognize that your image of yourself is distorted. Do you have any ideas about what is making you feel this way?

Its really good that you can recognise that how you see yourself is distorted. Maybe it would be worth trying to find some support so they can help you find out why you feel this way and try and help you come through it. I know it sounds silly but really everyone is beautiful in there own way and I dont know a single person who I really can't find something beautiful about.
I know christmas is a difficult time for a lot of people me included and I guess you just have to try and keep yourself distracted because in a few weeks it will be ove and things will probably calm down a bit.
Try take care of yourself maybe over the holidays and do things for you to try make you feel a bit better about yourself, even though I know its really hard.
If you ever want to talk or anything feel free to pm me anytime
Much love
xx

Maybe reframe your question as "What can I do to start liking myself, feeling compassion and caring for myself?"