thanksgiving and borderline
 

i dont think i can make it through this very rediculous holiday.
recently my therapist decided i guess that i most likely have borderline personality disorder. i havent started any sort of treatment yet. so that mixed with my eating disorder on well thanksgiving really sucks. this year everythign is diffeant and my father is more distant than ever. i dont know how im going to make it through today without doing anything dangerous. i feel like before i get a chance to leave and go to my friends' house for dessert ill end up in a bathroom cutting. im scared.

have you spoke to your family about your fears?
try and keep your self distracted from being negative. think positive and be determined to make it through the day....you can do it if you put all your effort into it.

i cant talk to them, ever. my father pretends i dont exist. unless im upset about somethign then he finds a reason to make me look like i did something horrible. thats the only time he ever speaks to me. my sisters would see and sign of emotions as a sign of weakness and so then they'll use it to get to me. theres no talking to my family.



and i made it through the day thanks to the jug of wine in the kitchen =/