Rough day, but I'm 1 yr cut free!!
 

Hey guys,

Sorry to post again so soon without having something to offer the community but I really need some support right now. My grandmother passed away about 3 months ago and I'm still reeling from that however now I have another problem, one of my dogs, an 8 yr old lab just dropped and started convulsing on me this afternoon(the 2nd), I didn't think she'd survive to the car let alone the vets but she did and they put her on valium(and beta blockers if needed) and scheduled an appt for Thursday for xrays and an EKG (it was a holiday here today and none of the techs were on). I'm worried sick but I feel completely numb, today is also the one year cut free mark for me and I really don't want to lose that but I can't take feeling like this much longer. Any ideas on what I could do or hugs that you could offer would be much appreciated, I just feel so alone and empty right now. Thanks for taking the time to read and/or reply ~Jewel~

i can offer you hugs *big hugs*
dont be sorry, we all need support at some point
try not to feel alone, we're all here for you =)
if you want to talk just pm me
luv saz xxxx

*hugs* sweetie dont for a second feel like you need to apologise, we all need support at one point or another, and right now you need it.
i'm sorry that your grandmother passed, we just need to understand that grieving has no timeline, but you do need to let it out. talk to someone about how you are feeling about it, a friend or family member that you can share your feelings with.
and as for your dog, i cant imagine having to see that happen to one of my dogs, it is scary!!! for your sake i really hope your dog will be ok, you will both be in my thoughts.
*BIG HUGS* that is for being cut free for a year, that is awsome hun, dont play it down it is a huge success!!!
you need to find some other way to relieve the stress you are going through right now, do you have other outlets? writing, painting, watching a good movie, screaming into or punching a pillow (you look funny doing it but it works). and just remember if you do slip up dont be too hard on yourself, you can do it, but please try to find your release in a healthier way.
take care hun...let us know how your dog is pls
xoxoxox

It's perfectly ok to still be thinking about your grandmother.

Congratulations on one year free, by the way! It's a very special day for you, you should celebrate it.

And I'm so sorry about your puppy. I know that if anything happened to my dog i would completely lose it. He is basically my little furry infant son. :) An eight year old lab should have quite a lot of fight in it. I have one myself. I really hope she gets better, and yeah, tell us how she comes along.

Thanks for the support everybody, It means more than you could ever know. Saz, Thanks, just knowing the offer to talk's there is comforting. Bloodletting, I probably would be somewhat proud of myself for surviving under different circumstances, this really was shaping up to be a wonderful week, One year cut free the 2nd and then heading to the States for Independence day the 3rd and the 4th but right now all of that seems so irrelevant, all I care about right now is seeing my Dog through this, these animals make up more than half my family now that my grandmother has passed away, I'm serious, I have four animals, 2 dogs and 2 cats and only myself, my mother and my sister in my immediate family. And I really don't want to burden them with how I'm not coping, they're trying to deal with it too but I'll definately have to try some of your suggestions, they just might work but nothing ever really seems to work as well as the real thing. Jasmine, I completely agree, my animals are my life and I'll completely lose it if anything happens to any of them

I'm happy to report that as of 2:30am when I gave her the most recent dose and checked up on her she was a bit dopey(not as much as I would've expected though) and tired but more than happy to eat(or inhale) the valium spiked cat food being offered to her and she was breathing normally and was stable. I'll keep updating daily as long as anybody's interested. Again, Thanks everybody, your support means the world to me, I know it's only online but I need it, Since my grandmother passed away I only see/talk to like 2 people a week, sometimes only one and I'm dying for some sort of human interaction to save me from myself online or not. Thanks again ~Jewel~

your poor dog. i hope she will be ok.
congrats on a year cut free. your doing really well.
try talking to your dog. not only will it be theraputic for you, but she will enjoy the attention. pat her and spill out your troubles. i find this works for me most of the time.
take care and keep it up.
Annie

I hope you're dog is ok, she sounds like she will be, dogs have lots of fight in them.
I'm really sorry to hear about your grandmother, losing a grandparents is hard, you could try talking to somebody you're close to about it if you think it'll help, sometimes it's nice to just let it all out. Grief is a horrible thing to go thourgh, espeically by yourself.

Well done on the year! Keep it up.
Take care
xx

Hey everybody,
My dog's still doing very well, breathing a bit heavily(aside from her panting, this worried the vet some) but stable. I'm still worrying a lot but I have faith that whatever it is will be treatable, since she was started on the valium on the 2nd she's been stable, which is my main concern right now. Being a vet tech I know more than I care to right now. She now tries to run and hide when she sees me comming with the stethescope, as I've been bothering her almost constantly for a heartrate. We have an appt Thurday morning for tests and while I really want to know what's wrong, another part of me doesn't really want to hear it.

Annie, Thanks, I'm really surprised I made it to a year, I can't guarantee I'll make it a year and a month but this is the longest I've ever gone without it, even though I still want to do it more than ever right now. And I do sit and pat/play with/talk to all my animals quite often but as for complaining to them...I don't know I could, I try not to verbalize my complaints/problems (except for online obviously lol).

Ghost, Thanks for the encouragement. I also hope she comes through it okay, she seems to be doing very well now but I'm scared to death to get the test results done. As for talking to somebody, I don't want to bother anybody, my grandmother and I were closer than anybody else in the family( I was her first grandchild and spoiled rotten for many years and I was the only one she'd let check in on her regularly or stay with her when the drs didn't want her to stay alone or who convince her to keep dr appts and the like even when she didn't want to go, if I told her she really should go and I'd go and stay with her she'd go) even though we were closest, I know everybody else is having a hard time with losing her too so I just can't bring myself to bother them anymore, I'm always the one who's the rock, that's just me....Thanks everyone or your replies, they mean so much,~Jewel~

Hey Everybody,

I just wanted to thank you all for your well wishes and let you know that B.C. was diagnosed with an enlarged heart and we're working on regulating her meds now, also my other dog Chewy(no I didn't name him, his previous abusive owner did and when he booted him out Chew moved in with us and we didn't have the heart to send him to the SPCA) who dropped from 100lbs to 77.6 lbs in 1.5months was diagnosed diabetic so we're starting him on insulin and a controlled diet tomorrow morning, thanks again ~Jewel~