Mental Problem Issues
 

Well, this is kind of a long story, so I apologize in advance. My guidance counselors at school found out I hear voices, so they sent me to the hospital, and also again the next day when I went back to school. They couldnt figure me out (they never could my entire life) so this doctor decided to send me to an inpatient hospital program for about a week in order to try and figure me out. And it was a week because he couldnt legally keep me there for more than 7 days unless I was a serious danger to myself or others. After that I was in an outpatient partial program during school hours for two weeks. Long story short, they diagnosed me a disorganized schizophrenic. They said that my problems can be the cause of depression, which together with what they kept telling me were only delusions is why I ended up addicted to SI. So they now have me on medication, and weely appointments with both a psychologist and psychiatrist.
According to them, a lot of my beliefs that ive held my entire life were just delusions caused by life long mental illness. They said that after a few weeks of this pill basically everything will change. I guess basically what I'm wondering is, if this really is all a chain reaction that led down to my SI problems, can these pills really treat all of these things? I doubt it's really that simple. I'm just kind of scared at the idea of everything ive believed not real, and an entirely new world and mind only a few weeks away. It makes me kind of anxious, and I'm not exactly sure what to do.

I have paranoid schizophrenia; it is hard to accept the illness, I understand. Its scary not knowing what is real and what isn't. I am glad you are having such intensive treatment. I'm in hospital atm. I self-harm because of my Voices, so SI can stem from schiz. Doctors often say pills will cure everything, but a large part of the recovery is your own willpower and insight.

Well, not cure rather than treat the illness as long as the medicine is being taken, but yeah. Well I'm good on insight, since I've lived with it all my life, and the voices came around 6 years ago, the doctors told me I have really good insight on my problems and about the human mind overall. I mean, if by SIing I'm not really making things better with my blood scarifice to fate, then I guess I really do need the help, as someone close to me said I needed.

Well I am glad that you have insight, its a good thing to have. What meds are you on/they suggest you go on? SI is a bit more common in schiz than in the 'sane' population. Voices for six years? I've had mine for four years. Do yours change (in the way they present themselves) over the course of time? Mine did.

So far they have me on Abilify. 4 mg dose a day moving up gradually to 10 mg over time.
And my voices didn't change the way they presented themselves, but they did increase in numbersover time. First there was just the one that calls himself Earl. Then came Jase, then Dan, and then Kenta came around last year.

Sorry for the late reply. How are the meds? How are you now?

Well, right now I have seen some changes in my paranoia getting slightly less problematic (which is good considering its gotten worse since my girlfriend cheated on me). However the voices and paranoia are still there. Although, it was been only about 2 weeks and so far I am seeing some improvements in them. I just hope it goes away before I snap and finally kill a sex offender that lives close to me to complete the ritual. Because if it isn't real either, then I am really screwed. I'm just glad I got the help I needed. I mean the meds and two weeks pf psychology so far are good enough for me to reflect and start noticing a lot of things may not be what I thought they were.

How are you doing today?

Have you discussed these problems with your psych?

Today, there are problems happening right now that I am trying to resolve, but other than that things are okay.
Yes, I did discuss those problems with the psychologist. He said that theres always people, or even help hotlines to call until the medication takes full effect. Which luckily I think it is since I have a fast metabolism it may be fully effective within the week.