Sorry another post from me
 

Tomorrow I see my gp. She is truely an angel. The best person I have seen in all the years of being in the 'services' A few weeks ago she asked if I thought if respite would be helpful, I said no, even though deepdown I thought maybe.

I mentioned it to my Social Worker yesterday and she is pretty ***** anyway and didn't really talk about it much apart from asking what I thought it would help with then said well we got 5 mins left so lets book next weeks app. (despite me saying I was feeling ready to die now)

So I am going to discuss it is my GP tomorrow.
I'm not sure what to expect but at least she is more willing to listen to my ideas and worries. Maybe she will talk to my SW. Suggest some IP admission or respite or something.

Anything to halt this disatraous spiralling down that I can see ending in something VERY bad.

So Fingers crossed it goes Ok. I need something so badly right now.

ah kelpie, im so proud of you. this is a really good step to be considering, glad you have a good gp it really makes all the difference!!

think ip/respite sounds a good idea. hopefully you will get some more intensive treatment with people that are very skilled in that area.

good luck tomorrow,let us know how it goes xx

your GP sounds great. talk to her more about it. it best to speak to some one htat you can feel comfortable with x

I'm seeing her in hour and half.
Had a dreadful night of SI and bad dreams. Feel s*** phiscally and mentally I hope I manage to get out what I wanna say to her.

Hugs. Best of luck. How did the appointment go?

I posted it in other thread in the serious disscussion thingy.
I'm exhusted and messed up.
There is a little girl in my house.