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I feel so huge right now. My friends are saying I look too skinny but I'm not. I can't be. I feel like a gigantic fat whale. I keep bingeing and purging as well and just ewww. I hate my reflection. Is it wrong that I've not bought any food deliberately so that I don't have anything to eat? I just want to feel thin for once :crying:

I have a really bad cold again too, which is making me feel really depressed. Also, the amount I drank last week is probably still making me feel down now I'm sober. It just makes me want to drink again. I also keep thinking, perhaps I will OD again, even though when I was in hospital puking up foam and bile, I swore I would never even consider it again. Maybe I just want to sleep well. If I took x I would be able to sleep so much more easily and maybe I'd feel better tomorrow.

I haven't written tomorrow's essay either, but I feel so ill that I'm not going into uni anyway. I'll have to hand it in late. But I am so stressed about work.. I just feel too ill to do anything about it.

/pointless rant, sorry..
Kayl xx

aww huni! *supportive hugs* wish i knew what to say to make things better

xxx

Hunnie I know you wont believe as Ive been there but your friends are probably right :( *hugs* I know you want to feel thin, but you have to eat to survive. and trust me you are no where near a gigantic whale! You keep binging because your body is asking for food, thats your bodys natural response when its starving.

Im so sorry you have a cold, I know they dont help how you feel much when your ill. But please dont do anything to put your life in danger.

Can you get an extentsion on your essay??

Please don't OD. :s why did I let you take half of the X ? I knew it was against my better judgement... Damn...
And yeah, can you maybe explain to the uni people that you're ill? I'm sure they'll understand. *hugs you*

It's not wrong to want to feel good about yourself. It is dangerous not to nourish your body and keep it healthy, or to keep up the damaging cycle of purging. Sweetie, it's difficult but you need to take care of your body and yourself.

As for being ill, it's good to take care of yourself, too. If that means taking a proper dosage of medication to help you sleep (not a harmful amount), and staying home from uni to rest and gather some strength, then you should do that.

Please be safe.

We are here for you if you want to talk to any of us privately. We all care about you and hope that you are feeling better very soon.

*hugs*

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Originally Posted by Scabette (Post 1227951)

why did I let you take half of the X ?

It's a different x, don't worry.. The x you gave me doesn't help me sleep at all.

The essay can be handed in either tomorrow or friday since I have a reason for not being in, so that will be okay. I'll probably do that in bed today.
Thank you for your replies, I feel a little better after a half-decent night's sleep xx