Its hard
 

Every time i hear a noise i exit this site, thinking its some one spying on me. I havent told any of my family or friends that i cut and im not ready to tell them yet. Some times i think they know, but then i think to myself they would try to at least talk to me about it. Writing and drawing and things like that are a real help but its nothing like talking to a real person. Some times i feel like crying but if i cry it makes me feel like a baby, and like im helpless. Im not helpless ive quit cutting befor without anyones help. But the only reason i quit is because people started to ask questions. I can tell its going to be hard this time. I really wish someone knew so i could get some real help, i just can't bring myself to tell anyone about it.

You are not a baby for crying, crying is a good way of expressing yourself and letting everything out of your system. Having a good cry is really healthy, maybe you should let yourself cry.
You shouldnt give up cutting for someone else, its something you should do for yourself and not before you are ready, its not something you can just stop, you need to address the real issues, why are you cutting, whats the cause of the pain that makes you feel you have to cut.
Why not try and write a letter to someone you love, a member of your family or a close friend, and write everything you wish you could say to them, then see how you feel, maybe you could give it to them. Otherwise you could go and get help yourself? Could you not go to your doctors and tell them, they could help you, they might even help you to tell your parents. Dont give up giving up before you've started, you can beat this.
You can beat this.
Take care
Aimee xx

I agree with craola, maybe talking to your doctor could help or what about a helpline?

Good luck sweet xxx

It's hard keeping self-harm a secret, I know. I exit this site everytime I hear someone too, even though my parents actually know about this site.

The idea of telling someone that you cut can be a very frightening thouught - partly because of the fear of being judged by the people you care about, I guess. But it can also be a really good thing, because they can support you, and help you to stop. Could you write someone a letter to explain it - that way, you could let them read it when you weren't there, if you don't want to see their reaction, and it means you can really think about what you want to say. Or, like craola said, maybe see your GP about getting some help, and they could help you to tell your parents?

There's nothing wrong with crying at all - it doesn't make you a baby, it's a way of releasing the way you feel, in a healthy, safe way, and that's a good thing, so if you feel like crying, let yourself - it can make you feel a lot better after crying.

Take care xx