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I'm really sorry guys. I only ever ask for support, never offer any.

I can't carry on anymore. I don't know what's real and what's not. I really don't. All around me, all the time I just see things that remind me of SI or suicide. They're kind of saying to me, why don't you just get on with it, do it properly.

I'm scared, because I know that I could do it. This summer proved it. I was so close, yet even I didn't realise.

I don't know what I'm asking, really. I guess I just need someone to talk some sense into me. I know that I'm being totally pathetic, yet that doesn't stop me. Cutting is all that I have left.

I'm sorry. Thanks for reading.

Like the person above me said, you've survived a lot. Think about how many years you have lived for. That is a long time. All you need to do here is survive for ONE day.. one day and then start over the next day. Every night acknowlege the fact that you are still alive and havent given in to the triggers around you.

Do you have something you could use as a distration for when you have thoughts like this? Doing something ussually makes the time go by quicker and makes the thoughts go away quicker.

Thanks for you replies. They mean a lot.

I don't have any distractions, really. I keep trying to work, or to do something else, but it all comes back to the fact that I'm never going to be able to cope, because even the most pathetic, ridiculous things trigger me.

I'm just stupid. sorry

*Cuddles*
Your not stupid and theres no need to be sorry.
You can't help it if something in triggering, you can only try your best not to act upon trigger, im sorry your feeling so low right now, but hang in there huni and im always here if you ever want to talk x