im losing it
 

had a rough day yesterday but by last night i was convinced i was going insane. it sounds silly but my head is going round so quick its making me physicallyuncomfortable. and then i had this really weird thing with the pens (its not the first time something like this has happened, not with pens but the same idea) but in my little grumpy mood i was tidying and i put the pens in the pen pot in a neat pattern but then all the clicky bits at the top have circles on and they looked like little eyes looking at me, staring and making me feel small. cant touch the pens now without panicking. i feel pathetic they are just pens but i had to pull them out of the pot one by one and hide them in the cupboard.

help

Are you under alot of stress at the moment?

I dont think you are losing it. Ive had similar experiences in the past. Too much time spent inside ones head and usually as a result of being stressed and panicing and over analysing everything.

You arent a horrid person either. Im not sure where you get this from. (well i have an idea but im not gonna say it here).

you are actually a lovely person and you have a heart as big as a whales. I know you have a hard time showing it at times and then when you do something thats not wholey nice you beat yourself up over it.

I know a wanker when i see one and you arent one!

Be good lil pie

Love and snuggles

Matthew xxx

I hope you are feeling a little better right now. How are things going for you? x

You aren't pathetic at all; I know what it's like to feel that you're thoughts are moving too fast. holld
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