i dont know
 

what to call this, label it..how come there's no heading for 'mad ravings'?
that would be nice
the wind is talking to me
saying it will catch me when i jump
the pills are saying they will hold me will i die
and on and on
and no it isnt my imagination
not wishful thinking
it is REAL voices from them
the stars say 'we'll see you soon'
the rain makes faces of death on the window only i can see, only i can like.
so why do isit and continuer to do?
why dfo i drag it out?
if it is meant to be, as i am sure it si, as im sure as ive been told so
why do i hesuistate?
fear
im sure
fear that once again i am wrong
when perhaps this is the only time io have ever been right
and im gonna **** it up
my one chance
i am a shadow of a person
a oretend
a fake
i hate me
so very much
oh so very mcuh

i want to go now
im done

romp

romp...
i never know how to reply to anyone anymore. im sorry.
just know that i care and please be safe.
much love.
xx

You don't do it Romp, not only because of fear but also because there is a part of you that knows that you can get through this, like you have so many times in the past. Keep going, things will get easier again.
Hold on tight

i love you romp
xxxlily