I annoy myself...
 

I really shouldn't drink....
I end up depressed and crying...
and saying more than I should =/

You're aware of what happens. That's a really great step forward.

Your next step is to look at how you might start to limit or stop the drinking, so as to better take care of yourself.

Alcohol does, rather unfortunately, have a tendency to exaggerate mood and what you describe is pretty normal.

It is hard to be specific without a bit more information like when/why you drink etc but if you can then trying to limit/cut out drinking is pretty good advice although I know that it can be difficult to do.

well I dont generally drink all the time but lately I've been drinking more
and when I drink I always get drunk =/
and I feel I annoy people as lately I've just been getting drunk and crying all the time.
I dont wanna have to stop drinking, I just want to be able to control my moods
I was drunk on Sunday at a friends house and got speaking to one of my mates
and told him something I dont tell people =/
and last night I've found out another friend has fallen out with me...
unrelated but still...
so was crying all last night...i'm fed up of crying all the time
so everyone else must be fed up of it too
I really cant be bothered with anything anymore....

Ahh the drinking/always get drunk thing. I was having a conversation with darkark yesterday and while it isn't the same situation I thought that you may find it interesting so the link is here.

As Stellata said, it is good that you have recognised this as an issue because at least you can do something about it. If you want to carry on drinking socially then there are some practical things that you could try. Always make sure that you don't drink on an empty stomach, slow down how fast you drink, take water between drinks etc.

Why did your other friend fall out with you (if you don't want to say that is ok)?

Jacky you haven't annoyed me in what the past 5 years? your going through a rough patch and your turning to the bottle thinking it will make it all go away, i know thats what i do and i'm sure others do as well. The thing is you have to look at whats making you feel like this. i'm always here if you need to talk and remember friends always fall out but true friends will always come back. Stay strong

I am an alcoholic in recovery. It isn't how much we drink, or how often. It is why.
hugs

thanks for all the replies
thats the thing I've no idea why he fell out with me...
its not even that its just he doesnt talk to me anymore
we've gone from being extremely close to hi, how are you and thats it =/
I keep thinking I'll feel better but I wake up feeling the same every day
and i just keep saying the same things...sorry

It is ok to say the same things if it helps. I seem to be spending much of my time going around in circles and feeling the same every day too. *hugs*

As for your friend it could be just a misunderstanding. It may be worth just asking him directly and then at least you will know one way or the other what is going on.

I would but then he would get in a mood with me for asking =/
its quite sad because he said hi to me today...
and that made me happy
that he said hi first...HA!
Its weird there's stupid things that I care about too much
and then sometimes I just care about nothing...
and I'm tired all the time

Sometimes it is the little things that matter the most.

At least he said ‘hi’ first and that has to be a good thing, right? If he is being like that anyway then it may be worth putting up with the mood just to find out.

yeah I was thinking about that..
but if he stopped talking to me altogether I dont know what I'd do

Why would he stop talking just for asking if everything was ok between you two?

because I always get paranoid and ask him if he is still speaking to me
ha
thats probably why he isnt

With some people you just can't win ;-).

thanks for replying to all my nonesense...

np...Nothing that affects the way you feel is nonsence; after all that is what RYL is for.

rrr Hun sounds like your having a tough time "hugs"
I am not going to tell you what to do but give you some suggestions
Firstly might not be good for you to stop drinking straight away(i am not condoning it)
Maybe look at what you drink and how much and reduce and make changes to that.
The real problem is you sound quite depressed and you are very hard on yourself.Your a lovely person and you have been great to me(sorry not been there 4u)
Crying isnt always a bad thing!
are you able to speak to someone like a gp?
sorry if this doesnt make sense its 7.45am and i still havent slept
take care hun

thanks rebecca =)
I have spoken to the doctor before (which is really hard for me)
and I was on anti-depressants...but I took myself off them
I didnt think they were helping
but I think I need to speak to the doctor again but I really dont know what to say and hate talking to people
you dont need to say sorry, its nice to know I can speak to you about things
you take care too
xxxxxx

Could you write it down instead and hand it to him?..something to get the ball rolling at least.