Not sure I can handle this again
 

I thought I had finally gotten somewhere with my life, thought I was sorting things out, fighting the depression and doing well with SI recovery.

Then it all tumbles down. I didn't see my relationship ending like this, not after it would have been our 18 month anniversary in 3 days time. But it did, it has, and there's nothing left.

I'm so sick of going through this over and over again. I'm sick of being left because I can't be enough. I don't want to cut, I've been clean for 16 months, but I just don't know if I can keep all of the anger and frustration inside of me without breaking down and succumbing to the urge to hurt myself.

*cuddles you and hands you tissues*

hey hunni

im sorry after been with them for so long that is has ended i know its hard to deal with and that your breaking right now

please try not to cut sweetie, i know its hard please do anything you cna when i broke up with by bf i painted plant pots anything at all and i did eat alot too

although it hurts it will get better in time

right it down sweetie your doing so well please we are all here for you

hugs tight midnight xxxx

I know it will get better and I will move on, but I've rebuilt myself so many times that I barely know who I am anymore. I haven't felt right in my own skin for so long, and I feel like I stopped cutting for all the wrong reasons (mostly to keep my friends and my mother happy).

Thankyou for your words of kindness, it's good knowing there is someplace I can go where I can get the support I need.