I give up! there is no hope! have been failed by the Mental Health System!
 

I dont think i can go on much longer, Feeling very suicidle.. I have always had poblems from as long as i can remember. Have always known that i wouldnt be perfect.

Like everyone else have always had a dream that i would meet someone get a job have children etc. live a happy life, But its like thats all it was a dream..There isnt a place for me to be happy!

Went to see my psyc earlier and all he had to say was i have 2 choices 1 i could try and snap myself out of feeling very unhappy and suicidle or i could be like this for the rest of my life..
If it was that simple nobody would have problems.

They have given up on me...my parents think that nobody can help me either..

I have been well and truely failed by the Mental Health System..I will just have to wait until my time is up bide my time..

To be honest i dont think it will be long...Have been giving out hints long enough to people that i need help cant cope on my own..but it seems to have fallen on deaf ears...

Its like im a time bomb waiting to explode. and only i can see it!

I just dont know what to do, Suppose to be on a list to see a psycologist but i dont see how thats going to help me, When i have had a social worker and a support worker and psyciatrist on and off all my life and that hasnt gotten me anywhere. I've become worse not better..

I just dont know anymore :crying:

Sorry if its kinda long!

You don't need to be perfect though because no one and i mean no one is and as your your dreams they can still happen the only time the dreams become impossible if u give up and go through with suicidal thoughts instead of hinting to people why don't you ask for there help you might be surprised please don't give up it will get better its just a matter of when try and be positive it always helps :)

Be safe x

see the main word there? try.
he's not saying that youre being pathetic or anything, hes not saing 'oh my gosh snap out of it' hes saying that you will only ever get better if you put the effort in.
you cant be miserable and go see a psych and they make it all better.
it is mostly down to you.
you have to WANT to get better, you have to dig deep and somehow find just a tiny spark of motivation.

i know its hard.. trust me, i realy do, but if you want to get better, you have to try. even when you feel like you dont have it in you.

i think hes saying that if youre not willing to help yourself, you will jut stay in a rut.

take care.

He missed out one other choice. To be supported in understanding why you feel this way, and work through your feelings and develop new ways of relating to yourself and life.

Hey sweetie,
I'm really sorry this is so hard for you - I've seen so many people failed by the system.
But, you have to remember that it's partly about compatibility. Imagine you have two friends, one you get along with and one you don't so much. Which one is going to understand you better? Which one are you going to listen to more?
It might just be that the people you have talked to so far havn't been right for you, and it will only take time for you to find the right person - and then you'll have the support you need.
One of my close friends was completely failed, and found support from someone who wasn't even supposed to be helping him.
In the meantime, everyone on here is here for you, ok? You can PM me whenever you want, and I have MSN as well.

Lots of hugs, Emma. x

Sweetheart things seem tough right now but suicide is never an answer to the problems you maybe experiencing now. There is always something else which can be done. You may not have found the help you have recieved up to now helpfull, but somewhere down the line you will benefit from the help, and your dreams of living happy, having a job, children etc will become true but you, and you only can only let that happen. Dreams are never im possible if you put the things in place to make them more of a reality.
Ultimately it's you who has to make the first move in order to get everything moving. You have all the strength you may need to get you through this. Yes there will be highs, and yes there will be lows but wouldn't it all be worth it in the end if you reached your dream? Just think of all the happy times you have had in the past..... if you had cut your life short before that, then you would have never experienced those happy times, you would have missed all that. Now my point is is that there will be many more happy times for you, and you don't want to miss out on them. You're special and people care about you, you'd be sadly missed if anything was to happen to you honey.
One last thing to add is that there is no such thing as 'perfect'. What is your definition of 'perfect'? You can't change the past, and you live for the present, but you can make your future what you want it to be. Put the blocks there to help you have the future you deserve, don't let what's happened to you before make you crumble now. Prove people wrong and start to show them what you're really made of.
We're all here for you sweetheart.
Take good care of yourself yeah,
if you ever need anything then feel free to pm me
Chloe. xx

Thank you everyone for your replies it does help alot and they are appreciated.