work and insecurity
 

There's a department wide restructuring coming up at work.

If I lose my job, I'll lose everything. My support. My home. Friendship.

So what's the point in living? I might as well die now.

They may not be able to use my mental illness as a reason to make me redundant. But they could always find another reason.

And what evidence do I need to know that I'm not needed, when all the work they could find for me the past 2 days is tearing up paper? The shredder is apparantly not up for the task. So my hands are?
I feel so useless.

Soon I could be money-less, which would mean homeless and support-less.

I feel like I've survived this far, come this far in my recovery, for nothing.

I know it's not a given that I will lose my job.
But it's a possibility.

The world doesn't need me anymore.

I wouldn't be able to get another job because who'd employ me as I am? And who else would allow me to fit my hours around therapy and GP appointments?
I'm done for, aren't I?

The world does need you.

You don't know for definite that you will lose your job but IF you do, you will find another one. If you have appointments that you need to fit work around would it be an option to look for a part time job that might be more flexible with hours?

You can get through this. If you are unsure of how, maybe your therapist could point you in the right direction of organisations that could help?

Please don't give up hun. Look after yourself x

i'm sorry Katheriune to have no real constructive ideas/suggestions. But i do echo what was said about taking it oine day at a ttime...your bad thoughts are running wild...but its well understanable.
*gentle hugs*

Can you speak with your mamger about how you are feeling and see if they know anything more?

Here if youi like
thinking of you
romp

Thank you... I'll keep a hold of your replies to read when I .. fall over the edge about it again...

Thankfully my therapist brought me back to a stabler place in this morning's session.

It's hard.

*hugs* i know its difficult but people need you around :) i'm glad your T brought you back to a better place. I just thought i'd reach out and let you know i was listening

((gently hugs)) I hope you don't lose your job Katherine and I think it would be a great idea to keep a copy of everyone (else's) useful comments on this thread.

no Katie.....you are NOT done for.
i dont have any words and im sorry.
there has been alot of good advice for you.
*holds close*
loves.
xxxxx

Thank you.
I'll reply properly later.