once again, im here to bitch
 

i swear to god im fucking losing it! i dunno what the hell to do anymore...it doesnt seem to matter what happens, at the end of the day i feel like a pile of shit...i want everything to just stop!...it the back of my twisted little head, i hear, no one fuckin cares, there all just allin me Liz to drive me insane!! i cant take this shit anymore,

Hi Jason,
I'm sorry your situation is so crap at the moment.
I know what it's like to feel worthless and to feel that nobody cares. But it isn't true, as hard as that is to believe, I can promise you that.
Are you seeing anyone to help you out with this? If not, that might be a good thing to do. You deserve better than to feel as shit as you do.

In the meantime, maybe you could look for some good distractions to calm you down a bit. I play a lot of guitar myself =)

Take care of yourself. x

Sorry your not having an easy time with things lately. What exactly is wrong? regardless of whether or not you want to talk about it, we're here. It will be ok. Feel better!

Hey,
I'm sorry you're having a rough time at the moment. Can you speak to anyone about what exactly is wrong? Even if it's just us? We're always here for you. Just hang in there, in the end it will get better, even if it doesnt seem like it.
Maybe if you distract yourself with something, it helps.
Take Care hun,
xxx

the others give good advice. i myself often question the purpose of my life at the end of the day (or any other time...) but i guess i retain some amount of faith in life or whatever. also this stubborn bit of myself that refuses to quit. to me, i need to find purpose, know that i am touching at least one life in a positive way, and that is enough to be alive for. though i have fragile ambitions of actually making a difference in people's lives on a slightly higher level. or else i say that we were born and if for no other reason, we should live. force ourselves to make it from one day to the next. this may not be an ideal response, but if not directly answering your call, look in a more abstract way. take care.