dont belong
 

my anxiety is over the scale I'm getting paranoid and high temps and shaking with my nerves ,i don't feel i belong in the world i really don't ,i tray ed to go out this weekend but it made me worse and now i just want to look my self away from the world everything is affecting me ,when people talk i end up shaking Cos of my past and way I'm being ignored by my Dr and my past has come home to relive my abuse ,i don't feel safe from out side i see the world but don't feel i belong in it my thoughts are every were ,

Are there any other places you can look for help besides your doctor?

I'm not capable of searching no idea how to ,I'm just stuck as every one has to refer you ,so I'm believing the world don't want me so i don't want it every thing smallest thing goes wrong and Ive been positive thinking for a long time i just don't see the fight any more I'm trying but triad my home not turned agents me yet so I'm safe hear but then i question do i kneed help support is this my destiny is it a punishment for birth I'm thinking all sorts right now my head Milty tasks all at once i phoned my Dr up we will discuss it wen i see you he says ,I'm thinking don't rush eh ill see if I'm available in a month its all a joke a well ill think a bit ,thanks for asking me i know you is trying to help ,not gone unnoticed

Feeling this low is not your destiny and you shouldn't be punished. You are just ill and you need to heal. I don't know what to suggest if your doctor is not being any help, maybe go to the hospital if you're feeling suicidal? They might take some notice of what you're saying and give you some help even if your doctor won't

im very emotional and triggered
 

thanks to you and i know you don't know Wat to suggest thats the very way i feel I'm triad frustrated Ive stopped going hospital now as all they do is nothing and don't listen to you so you get sent home and i just Carnot put my self through that dragging my self down there and 4r nothing ,and my Dr hasn't time a day its one thing at a time 4r him and i have to pick health or state of mind so one has to suffer until the following month ah Ive had it really Ive got to well Wat do i do i don't know Wat the answer is thats way I'm on this site hoping some one else has any idea ,I'm going threw a difficult time in all directions and i can only mention one to my Dr at a time i really feel i don't want to be hear right now I'm so like my title says ,i thank you for your message ,

Is it that you can only bring yourself to talk about one thing at a time to your doctor or has he said that he can only deal with one thing at a time? Is there any chance you could change to a different doctor if this one is not helping you like you need?