werid just very werid
 

found out yesterday a workmate had died of brain cancer
she was diganosed about 2 or 3 month ago [i think]
she had been given 3 to 6 months to live with it

i just feel werid about it
i had a little cry last night
i didnt know her that well [just thru work really] but what i did know of her she was sweet, funny and a down to earth type of lady

its just werid to think she wont be around anymore

then i kinda thought about how do i fit into this thing called life
how i feel like ive been dying of a broken heart since mum and dad split
i miss my nan so much
i want to do something stupid
because i dont think anyone would really miss me
im testing myself
there is a unopened bottle of vodka in my bag
it has been there for 8 days now
maybe i should just down it and then cut

Drink and cutting can be a really unsafe combination, please take care *hugs*
Suzanne xx

Yo udidn't really know this woman yet it still hurt that she'd passed away. That's what woul dhappen if you died too. People you didn't even think cared would hurt and hurt and it's a lingering thing. *cuddles* dont' drink and cut please! Try and talk to someone/ Go to your emergency room/a&e? be safe! *hugs*

there are people out there who care for you even if they dont show it. people who like your presence even if they dont say it. people who know you exist and care for you even if you dont know them. There are many people in my life that if they died i would be heartbroken even though they dont know me. There are many people who i enjoy seeing around even if i dont say it (this guy at school he was just there sitting on his computer with a laugh about every five mintutes one day he was gone and i wondered where he went and then i saw one of his friends and he told me he killed himself. I was devestated he made my day when i was happy and made my day even more when i wasnt because here he is alone yet happy his laugh is what i needed to pick me up out of my funk.)

People you dont know will care!

I'm hijacking your thread for a minute.

Back in September I si'd. Cause of a communication problem with someone I know. When he found out, i saw the sorrow on his face and it was awful.

Everyone you come in contact will miss you. Will wonder what happened and worry about you until they find out.