can't find words
 

I think I'm a bit dissociated.
I can't concentrate on anything.

I'm ok, I'm just feeling vulnerable and withdrawn.

I'm sorry.

I wish that I had the words to say to help.

Please know that we are here for you

*hug*

*holds you*
I wish I had words to make you feel better but I don't.
Just know that I care about you.
*hugs*

*Hugs* No need to be sorry.

Please send me a PM if you feel the need to, kays? <33

Thanks.

Keeping you company and safe whilst you feel like this.

How are you doing?

Thanks.
I'm doing quite a lot better, having had therapy. I really was very dissociated. But in a way I've not really felt it much before. It really shook me up.
There was a trigger, and I understand it more fully now. To my relief.

*Sneaks back in and hugs moar*

What is dissociation like?
How are you today?
*hug*

Hey, don't really know you very well but I've seen you around the forums and I know your lovely, so if you ever want to chat or you feel lonely or anything you can PM me anytime, hope your feeling better *hugs*
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Its great that you can understand whats goin on for you hun - as painful as things prob are right now

Always here

Thank you. :blush:

I'm doing pretty well today. I'm still steady from therapy yesterday, and seeing my GP this morning.

My dissociation comes in different forms.

- physical numbing, fizzy feeling in head.
- completely blanking out for 10-20 seconds.
- blanking out feelings, being unable to find words.
- flashback type when I'm in a past reality and can appear like psychosis to people who don't know PTSD. That's when I get hostile and aggressive and defensive.

The type that I had on Wednesday evening was the 3rd type. It's when my alter-ago attempts to 'protect' me from feelings and memories. But instead messes things up and tangles them up more. I'm becoming more able to untangle and understand the whole process now. I've done so much intense work in therapy the past week. Well, ever since I started therapy, but all the more so this past week.

And you know what, I'm really really tired, and will be getting an early night tonight. I've caught up a bit on my work on RYL today, which is a relief. And am going to get some well needed rest really soon I think!

I'm glad your feeling a bit better today *hugs*
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I think your doing fantastically well really i do. Your clearly working very hard so well done. It cant be easy. Your a survivor.

You seem to be doing so well recently Katie, the fact that you can identify such situations is amazing and something I wich I could do. I can tell from your replies to posts that you have such an insight and have made such an effort to address your problems.

*hugs gently and whispers gently into Katie's ear to remind her of all the steps and tremendous efforts she has made - we are all proud*

Thank you. *blushes again*

I'm really tired still this morning. And there's something shifting inside emotionally, I'm not quite sure what, but I'm listening and observing and I'm sure the answer will come soon.

*squishes Katherine*