Feel so empty...
 

Feeling pain is better than not feeling anything at all...
I hate this...
I feel like everytime I get close to someone they leave (or at least try or threaten to)...
Nathan...
Callum...
Laura...

Why the heck?
Maybe I should just leave RYL. I think I make things worse. It's been helpful, but I can't keep screwing things up for people.
I say all the wrongs things and make people mad and feel worse and it's not right.
I'm selfish for even posting this, but in case you haven't noticed... that's how I am... selfish.

:crying:

Cutting made it a bit better...
I don't know how long it will last though...
I think Nathan may be gone for good this time...
And maybe soon I will be too.
I think I need to leave RYL...
But I don't want to...
But it's for the best...
:crying:

hey honey, you need to try and stay strong
*cuddles*
You arre not selfis, we all need to think about ourselfs hun.
i do hope you are being strong.
im here if u want to talk i may not be much help, but im here ok.
xxxxx

i'm trying to be strong...
But the truth is...
I'm not...

:crying:

Hey

Why do you feel you need to leave RYL? could you perhaps speak to those that you have mentioned in this thread and try and sort things out. to be honest there is only so much you can do to help someone on this site.If you are concerned about someones life, do you have any contact details for them? Try your best to keep positive about him.

I personally dont think it owuldbe a good idea for you to leave RYL as it sounds like you need the support and just somewjere to relax.remember you cant always support others, you have to think of yourself sometimes.

Are you currently getting any professional help?

Jane x

Nathan is probably dead...
If he does die then Laura will definitely kill herself...
And idk where Callum is...

Yeah... I go to therapy weekly...

hey!
hunny you ok?
what a stupid question, of course you aren't...
don't leave though, please!
xxx

I won't if you won't...
That means you can't commit suicide either...
I need someone....

aww hun *hugs tightly*
i won't, last night, well, it was just too much for me to cope with.
i wouldn't though hun, ok?
as long as you dont
*hugs tightly again*

I am sorry to hear that he may be dead, do you have any way to contact him?Please try and keep positive and look after yourself too.Try to be there for laura but you have to think of your own mental health.

If laura is on RYL, perhaps you could encourage her to make a thread on RYL so you dont always have to support her as you are going through a tough time at the moment

hunny!
he's not going to die! believe me, ok.
he's getting help now, eventually
but we all need you to stay strong =]
i know you can do it xxxx

Okay...
Hey, Laura, do you know how Nathan is doing...
They can't possibly let him out so fast this time, right?

nathan, callum and everyone else are fine!
=]
i hope you are too xxxx

haven't heard much, he's unconscious though =/
but the outlook = good =]

Yeah, but Callum did almost swallow a razorblade yesterday...
What even gave him that idea?
And where is he now?

i know he did hun, but he's safe now. i spoke to him earlier, he's much better xx

Thank goodness...
Where would he get that idea?
That would hurt SOOOO bad...

Hun *hugs* I think your being waay too hard on yourself
It sounds to me like your trying hard to support other people who are having hard times coping but you need to remember that your mental health is important too and your not to be held responsible by something somebody else chooses to do,
you can PM me anytime hun
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes it would. and yes it did. I coughed it up straight away, wasnt a good idea. Dw about me. im fyne stay calm. Dont worry bout anyone but yourself babe

Callum, answer my question!
Where did you get that idea?
Now, it's just going to drive me mad...
Curiousity is one of my worst traits...