Could do with a hand
 

Finding it really hard to cope. Had a crisis on Friday and cut really deep and my flatmate got me to my GP because I didnt feel safe.I have been on diazepam for the last week but have just come off it. I was still feeling stressed but it didn't manifest itself and now without it I just can't cope. I haven''t been out in weeks I'm terrified of everything. I really can't live another day, my flat mate is on suicide watch from doctor but he's out and I feel this is my opportunity. Everything is just horrible I have been hurt so many times and it just feels like everyone hates me.

Finding it really hard to cope. Had a crisis on Friday and cut really deep and my flatmate got me to my GP because I didnt feel safe.
That's nice of your flat-mate to do that. Hope you don't mind me asking, but what made you have this crisis? Did something happen to trigger you, or was it something in your head (sorry about how crude that sounds, I hope you know what I mean though). What did your GP do? Have they looked at the cut(s)?

I have been on diazepam for the last week but have just come off it.
How comes you came off it? Unless you have a really bad reaction to meds, it's unlikely your GP will take you off it. Saying that, I was only on my ADs for something like 10 days because they made me crazier than I was before!

I was still feeling stressed but it didn't manifest itself and now without it I just can't cope.
Have you told your GP this? If not, can you make an appointment to go see him/her? It sounds like you could do with some extra help at the moment, and meds can give you that boost you need to get you out of a rut.

I haven''t been out in weeks I'm terrified of everything.
When you say terrified of everything, what do you mean? What exactly are you scared of? I know that seems like an impossible question to answer, but even if it takes you a month to answer it, you can start tackling the problem from there.

I really can't live another day, my flat mate is on suicide watch from doctor but he's out and I feel this is my opportunity. Everything is just horrible I have been hurt so many times and it just feels like everyone hates me.
Why do you think everyone hates you? 99.9% of people in the world don't even know you, so you can be pretty sure they don't hate you :-p How do you mean you've been hurt so many times? By a particular person or by many?

I know I've asked more questions here than given you advice, but if you could come back and answer them then that will give me (and others) more insight and help advise you better.

Take care of yourself.

x

It was just my head, the doctor looked at my cut and dressed put steris said it didn't need stitches.

I'm off Diazepam because the doctor said it was just a temporary thing to get me to seeing my real GP on the monday . I have always been on trazadone which helps me sleep now he has given me sertraline as well but I can't afford the prescription so just on the trazadone.

I told my doc about the stress wasn't manifesting itself and he just put me on the sertraline sometimes I think he doesnt take me seriously.

I'm scared of going out because I was stalked for about a year and now I am scared he will find me or anyone will find me and hurt me, plus I just dont have the energy or motivation. I don't like the noise people being near me etc.

People must hate me because the majority I have met have hurt me either by simple bullying or by other things like sexual abuse and domestic abuse.