Enough is enough
 

This is never going to stop. So much has happened that can't be undone. I've ruined everything. And all because I'm too weak, too fucking weak! I'm going to pick out the stitches, just let it bleed like it should have on saturday. No one would even know this time. Even care. I've lost everything. EVERYTHING! I don't even know why I'm fucking writing this???!!!! I want out, I want to forget it all. I want this to stop, to end. NOW! I can't handle it, I can't. I've tried to be strong, to keep my head above the water but I just can't do it anymore. This is it for me.

Aw, honey, please calm down! I know things seem rough right now, but would you rather talk about it first than doing something rash?

there's no point. All i do is go round in circles. And I always get back to this one fact - i am and always will be completely alone. So what's even the point anymore?

I can relate to how you feel about that...