Stabbing
 

i nearly stabbed someone today. i can feel the blood running through my veins. the adrenaline pulsing through me. i am hot and cold.

i smile at dark thoughts and actions.

my friends fear me.

advice?

huni.... im sorry to say this.
you do seem to be a danger to yourselves and others.
please speak to your doc. you need to have someone on your side who can help you xxx
im gonna be online if you wana chat. please please dont be acting on your thoughts. xxx
im d

I agree with Michelle there.
Remember also that these are thoughts. And thoughts don't have to be acted on.

How're you doing today?

i feel very strange

In what way?

as if im going crazy

What kind of things usually help you stabilise?

alcohol. cutting

There are safer things that can steady you. You just need to find what works for you.