feeling a bit unloved
 

this shouldnt really be in serious, as its just me being stupid, but lately, i've felt really unloved, and just generally sh*tty..

i dont know what it is, but i hate everything about myself..i cant stand who i am, and if i was someone on the outside, i'd avoid me. but i can't.
because this is who i am and im stuck with it.

i don't really know why i'm posting this..i just need to let some stuff out i guess...

i just feel really..i dont know...unwanted..?


ugghghghgh

I can relate to how you're feeling, because right now I feel basically the same way.
I'm not really sure what to tell you though, seeing as I'm in no shape to tell you how to get rid of this feeling, but if you happen to find out let me know.
But I think you're really cool... I don't see why you would hate yourself...

i'm not really cool =/ im selfish..annoying...stupid, argumentative, stubborn, childish, fat, ugly, short...ugh i could go on forever =/ i cant stand myself..

i had confidence...which slipped over time...then someone made me feel really special and loved for the first time ever...because no one has ever liked me..and he said he really did and seemed to care and blah blah blah...and that gave me confidence...but then they ****ed me over, by ringing me and telling me to die...and...i don't know it messed me up..because finally when i felt i had something..it was false...


ugh im going on about nothinggg im so bloody selfish

just re-read what i wrote....and i sound so pathetic

and i'm not really good at anything...im doing terrible in college

Academics do not define a person... at all...

I think there's a lot more to you than you see. As my friend tells me all the time, you're too judgemental of yourself. I mean, you wouldn't call another person all those things to their face so why do it to yourself.

But of course I have a hard time taking any of my own advice, but it may workout better for you...

hey hey hey!
unloved? unwanted? i know you're not...and i know that because i love you :)
you helped me through difficult shit, and i love ya for that hunny, ok?
just stay strong, and we'll fight together
All the best, Nathan xx

i think i know why he did it.
partly because he wanted to be friends with benefits and i was like =/
and also because i didnt flash him.
then he got really angry at me...

kinda stupid but whatever

and then yeah..he rang me on witheld number and told me to go and "kill yourself, you emo bitch" which hurt a lot, as he was one of my means of support...

i just feel..wherever i am..college..out with friends...on here...that im really separate from everyone, and i just feel lonely..and unimportant and worthless

i love you nathan, but i've been sh!t =/

hunny you are not worthless, you are not unimportant, and you are not lonely, not whilst im around, at least :)
what the guy said was totally uncalled for, but you should ignore him hunny, because like i've said before, you're stronger than that! xx

i don't feel strong..

hunny i count you as one of my frickin best mates, even though we've spoke for the whole of, what, not even a week?
you aren't shit, and i love you so frickin much. we can get through this hunny, i can help you, right?
xx

no...i dont have any professional help at the moment..i dont know if it would help or not..

and i hope so nathan

but i dont have the confidence to see them in the first place

my problems are nothing compared to other people's

Just because you problems don't SEEM as bad as other people's doesn't mean you don't deserve to get help.

huuny you're problems are so important to me, i want to help you thorugh them. don't think for a second that people have worser problems. maybe they do, but don't think about them, think about YOU. you're problems are yours, and they are so very important to YOU.
i guess what im trying to say is that your problems might not seem as important as other peoples, but they are!
you helped me, so now im gonna help you hunny, ok?
xx

thank you guys...all of you...

i'm feeling a bit better..

im going to seriously think about seeing a counsellor...just need to pluck up the courage

It definitely takes courage. I wasn't given the choice actually, so technically, I'm still a coward. But still... I'm sure you're much braver than I am.

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.
In a group therapy thing I ued to go to they made us pick one positive thing to say, and sya it while looking someone in te eyes, or staring down our reflection in the mirror. Something like "I am a good person", or "I am worthy of being loved". Try it... because you ARE worthy of being loved.

I might try that Namaste.

actually, is there a thread on that? because i might start one, and people can post positive things....


and im 17