Im going to do it...
 

Im going to cut because I know that this weekend I will get used by another guy just like I always do because I'm easy and I need someone to feel close to. I hate myself. I've had pregnancy scares before and I dont need another one, but NO that won't stop me because Im just a fucking loser who does people to feel needed and get alcohol.

Fuck it............

You don't HAVE to. You have choices.

You don't have to cut.
You don't have to get used.
You don't have to be 'easy'.
You don't have to drink alcohol.

On the other hand, feeling needed sounds really important to you. As is natural. We all have a desire to feel valued and wanted.
However the methods you are using are by far not the only ways to go about it.
Neither does being used seem much like being really loved and wanted for who you really are, to me.
It sounds like a pretty huge price to pay, to me.

As Katherine said, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do, or anything that makes you feel uncomfortable. You do deserve to be in a loving, healthy relationship. I can understand that things are pretty tough for you right now, but you are worth so much more. Hang in there.
Look after yourself, and try not to let yourself fall into this self destructive cycle again.
xx

These peole are wise and they speak wise words.
You dont have to do anything you're not comfortable with, you deserve to have a relationship that is loving, a relationship that is helpful to you and not detrimental. Im sorry things are so tough for you, but you deserve so much more than what you're giving yourself.
Take care hun
Aimee xx

You have a choice about this. As Katie said, it's natural to want to feel needed, but you don't have to go about it in this way. Instead of getting used by some guy this weekend, why don't you go out with some friends or just relax at home? You don't have to do this and you deserve so much better.

You don't have to self-harm, you just feel the need to. We all know it isn't easy just to stop self-harming like that, but it is possible to recover. Have you ever thought about getting any professional help?

Take care. xo