i cant do this *OD trigger*
 

im really down and ive got all these tablets and im so scared. ive had the tablets for weeks and managed not to take them but i cant resist it much longer. my thoughts are so strong and messed up and im a complete idiot and i dont know what to do. i tried to tell my worker today how bad it was but i couldnt and now im so messed up i dont know what to do. i just want it to stop hurting and for him to leave me alone. i just want to go to sleep and not wake up.

:crying:

i know right now it seems like it would be the hardest thing in the world, but put the pills away. somewhere where you can't get to them easily. you're strong enough to do that.
please, put your mind to something else, talk to someone
you can PM me any time, okay :)
if you need to talk about anything.
please be safe
x

Can you tell us some more about your thoughts? We'll do our best to help you through.

i just keep thinking about taking tablets and other ways to end it all, and then about the stuff thats happened in the past, i just cant get it out my head. im so scared

What happened in the past? Maybe try telling us, that might ease the pressure some.

i think you'll find it so much better if you are able to talk about what happened. please try and talk to someone. x

*Gives you a big hug* Im sorry to hear that your feeling like this. However oding really isnt the answer and will make things worse. Please get rid of the pills you dont need them. Oding is extremly dangerous and causes severe damage. Is it the things that happened in the past thats making you feel like this? Or is it something else? Could you talk to us some more about what it is thats making you feel like this? Im really pleased you have support. Next time you see your worker you might find it helpful if you wrote a letter out to give to him/her.

You may also find it easier to write a letter than to say it face to face which is why i have suggested writing a letter. You dont have to go with my idea, its completly up to you. You can get through this, these feelings wont last forever i know its scary upsetting and difficult but you can get through this. We are all here to support you to. Have you ever tried calling the samaritans? You could also get in touch with the supporters by using this link http://www.recoveryourlife.com/liveh...hp?LANGUAGE=en keep posting.

Take care best wishes Ian